A miracle, my friend, is an event by which faith is created. - George Bernard Shaw

Expect a miracle, friends.

For in the end there will be joy.

Giving Thanks.

Thank you to every single visitor who has taken the time and effort to visit my mom. This is not even half of the visitors she had each night! It's beautiful seeing old friends coming from different cities all gather under one roof again as if no time has passed. Amazing to see different families and relatives we haven't seen in maybe years.

Your support, encouragement, prayers are more than enough. I only hope that our family can be the same dependable friends that you have all been to us. Let us cherish our relationships with each other while it lasts; life is short. Don't take our friends and family for granted! Thank you to God for He is good with blessing us with people in our lives that will be the shoulders to cry on.

~Desiree Seisa

Expect A Miracle: Support Agnes' Fight // dance workshop

Beautiful outcome.
Thank you to Press P.L.A.Y., Intersection, and Step I Dance and Fitness in Sacramento for hosting this event! We are blessed with the best of friends and family.

Miracles are happening.....

This past weekend, we had several events that occured in memory of our Loved One, Agnes Fe.

The Ministry Event at Church of the Highland, San Bruno Ca. & Press Play Dance Workshop in Sacramento Ca. was Magnificent & a Success.

A family member shared with me that they went to Church of the Highland to Support our Friend Pastor Hugo who hosted & Preached a Powerful Message that touch many Lives this past Saturday.

I too was personally touch also by so many people who attended the Press Play Dance Workshop, who hugged us, shared kind words & encouraged our kids that it made it a Truly a Miracle for All, who attended both Events.

We are Truly Blest to have Friends, Family & Unknown Friends who made it Special & Amazing for All of Us.

Lets Keep the Miracle Going, For the Miracle is You, in this Grateful Holiday Month.

Celebrate Agnes Fe Espiritu Seisa

"I will make you beautiful forever,
a joy to all generations."
~Isaiah 60:15
And she will be forever young and beautiful,
and truly a JOY to this generation and the next.

Join us as we celebrate HER life.
Cypress Lawn Memorial Park
VIEWING

Thursday & Friday, December 1st and 2nd

4:00 - 9:00 pm (evening services at 6:30 pm)
Newall Chapel
Note: if coming from north (Serramonte), make a left across the Cypress Lawn sign.


Chapel Burial Service

Saturday, December 3rd

1:00pm (followed by burial)

I've been told I'm a writer. Sometimes I like to think of myself as one. But this time around its been Desiree and Dad doing all the expressing and writing while I simply sit back stunned.

Hello Mom,
I'm not praying to you or anything. Just to make that clear, it's just easier to pretend I'm talking to you. The difference between praying and talking to you is that in prayer I know that Jesus Christ will answer me back, talking to you I guess I'm having Him relay the message?

We visited the house last night (our home was foreclosed in May). I had a bad feeling about visiting because I knew it'd bring back memories and cause us to cry...but I suggested we go anyway. We went. The night was foggy, the lights gave off that sort of eery, creepy glow. We parked in front of the house, rested for awhile. I half-thought someone would peer out their window and think we were stalkers. The house looked nice, cleaner than it has been in years. We imagined opening the door, immediately hit by the warmth of the small lamp lights, the smell of beef with mushrooms or freshly baked chocolate chip cookies with walnuts. We kick off our shoes, I bring mine in my room and kick Desiree's shoes to be alined with the wall...or set hers on the shoe rack. We'd tell you how much fun we had at the Expect a Miracle dance workshop, how Sami danced and was the most adorable cutie ever and I actually sort of began to gain rhythm.

I told Desiree that if we still lived there I don't think I'd be able to stand it. So God really knows what he's doing when he told us to leave our comfort zone--our home. Be free. I just really wanted to bring up my thankfulness that you prayed and visited almost every apartment complex so we'd be together under one roof--a home of our own. It's true what Desiree said to me, a house is just a house. And I told her, yes. That's not home anymore--it's too clean.

The reason why we ache so much is because this is not our home. Our true home is where you are, we were not made to live here forever. But that doesn't mean live in the past--but it doesn't mean don't grieve either. It just means that...

Ah, in the end there will be joy.

Auntie you left us with your legacy, and we will continue to show it to others.

Just got a text from a family friend:

-Lelaine

Dezi, Your blog post was read by Pastor Hugo Tejada last night at the Church of the Highlands fundraiser/ night of worship. It blessed the attendees last night. BTW...There were 500 people in attendance who did not know Fe but were touched by your blog post.

Your message is creating more impact on people's lives than you'll ever know...

http://agneseseisa.blogspot.com/2011/11/47-beautiful-years.html

Expect A Miracle

Hello all,

If you haven't heard already, Press P.L.A.Y. & Intersection is throwing a workshop later today (Saturday 11.26) in honor of Auntie Agnes. It is $5 minimum donation to take all 4 classes (ballroom, contemporary, breaking, hip-hop) and all proceeds will go to the Seisa's. It is located at Step 1 Dance and Fitness on the corner of 19th & T (1920 T St. Sacramento, CA 95814).

Come celebrate with us the beautiful life of Auntie Agnes and let us remember her legacy of a being a true follower of Christ. Let us continue to expect miracles because God makes them happen everyday. She was a miracle herself because her wisdom and love inspired a lot of us to change for the better. Let the light she shined in us continue to shine upon others.

"...be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity." -1 Timothy 4:12)

God bless you all 8]

-Harold

"It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time." ~Barbara Kingsolver

Memories in the making--taken one summer evening just hanging out. We love the balmy Sacramento summer evenings compare to our San Francisco cold summers so time with the Seisas was always an inevitable and welcomed idea.

Fun Times...

"Below is a picture of Ate Agnes and Kuya Dennis at Twin Peaks. They had shared with us that 'back in the day' they used to rent a convertible for the anniversary for a day and they hadn't done that in awhile. So... Intersection got some funds together and I was able to reserve a converitble from SFO Airport. John Paul had planned for them to go to San Francisco to have a 'Family Day' but we planned all along to meet up at Twin Peaks to hand the keys over for a day. So when they got to Twins we came about 5 minutes after and acted like we were there to hang out to and it was just by coincidence that we crossed each other. We told them that we wanted to take a look at a different side of Twins, in front of where the convertible was parked, and walked by it and said "that's a really nice ride!". Kuya Dennis agreed and we pulled out the keys and said "so then take it for a day!" Their faces were priceless! Haha!" ~Crystal Decastillo

And thank you for a house full of people I love. Amen. ~Terri Guillemets

Mom (46), Sami (5), Dad (45), Desiree (18), Me/Liana (16), JP (23, adopted as bro. 3 years ago)

This year.

Edit: NOT last Year.

Laughter is the shortest distance between two people. ~ Victor Borge

Dennis & Agnes' 20th anniversary, taken at Twin Peaks, San Francisco.

Photos

If you have any photos with or of Agnes, please send them to desiree.seisa@gmail.com or burn them on a CD and have it delivered to Desiree Seisa by Monday, November 28, 2011.

Thank You.

A Family Member's Love......

Hi Uncle Dennis, Desiree, Liana & Sammie,

First of all I wanted to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving. You all have shown so much strength and faith in the last month that I am inspired to write. Although I've only known you all for 3 years, I'm so honored to be apart of your family. I only spoke with Auntie Agnes a few times via family gatherings and facebook messages so I was really happy to read about her on the blog. It gives those of us that didn't know her so well the chance to get to know her now. She was an amazing woman, I just wish I could've had more time to get to know her like everyone else did.

I wanted to share with you our visit with her this past Saturday. We thought she was sleeping so we didn't want to stay very long and while Mike was holding her hand he said, "We love you Auntie". She replied by squeezing his hand. I was amazed because despite exhaustion, she still was trying to communicate. I had slipped a rosary in her hand when we first walked in so since I knew she was listening I went on to tell her why I brought it. I said, "Auntie I know you're not Catholic but I am and I put the rosary in your hand to remind you that we're all praying for you", she nodded her head. Then I said, " Don't worry about Sammie and the girls. We'll take care of them". She nodded again and this time a tear came out of her right eye. Her heart rate also jumped from the low 100's to 116. It made me remember that as much as we all would miss her, she would miss all of you, her family, the most. This Thanksgiving I am thankful for those last few minutes with her. She said so much without even saying a word. She loved you all so much and I thought that maybe I should tell you this story so you remembered just how much it must have taken her to go on the be with God even though she would have to wait a while to see you all again.

Last night I was saying my prayers and I had a vision of her. She was somewhere in the clouds in a meadow of some sort. There were white puffy clouds everywhere and she was laughing. I've seen Auntie Agnes laugh before, she has an amazing smile. Maybe since I've only had a few encounters with her I've never seen her have a carefree laugh before but this laugh was different. It was continuous. She had joy in her eyes. You could see it all over her face. She was wearing a white dress shirt and so was the little boy she was lifting and twirling around in circles. He looked about 7 or 8 years old. He had black hair but I couldn't see his face because he had his back towards me. I'm thinking this was Evan and this is their Heaven. I wish I could put this vision on video so I could show you how radiant Auntie was. She is truly in a better place. No pain, no illness, just happiness. I hope this puts your hearts at ease a little. It made me cry when I had this vision as it still does as I write this.

This Thanksgiving I will continue to pray for Auntie Agnes' soul and I'm also praying for all of your peace. May we be thankful for the years we got to spend with Auntie. Her legacy lives on with you. Mike and I love you all and hope that you call on us whenever you need anything. Help us make our promise to Auntie Agnes that we would take care of you.

Happy Thanksgiving,
Sheryll

kicking it off!

Thanksgiving officially starts today!

We all shared a nice plate of spaghetti in honor of Aunty Agnes because this was the last meal that she was able to eat, so from now on we will always eat spaghetti every Thanksgiving to celebrate her life.

I'm very thankful of the enormous impact that she had in my life. I'm the way that I am today because of her wisdom and teaching. Her legacy remains with us and we will continue it!

Encouraging An Air Force Family.....

Spoke to a Wonderful Lady today........

"Your Air Force family is thinking of you. We send you our love, and will support you in any way we can.

It was so uplifting to speak with you on the phone.

I called hoping that I could in some small way I could lift your spirits, and yet, I found myself being lifted by you.

You must have an amazing faith and wonderful family. "

My condolences and love to you and your girls,

Lt Col Cynthia A. Doolittle, PE, MS

Grateful Thanksgiving....

Hello Everyone,

We Thank You All for your Support in your Kindness, Friendship & Sacrifices thru offering us meals, services & donations.

Our family request & Our Dear Agnes would agree to, is that put aside any grieving in this Thanksgiving Holiday.

She would like for you to Invite family, friends or people who may not have a meal to share with on this Grateful Holiday, on behalf of Agnes' Legacy.

Lets Re-Connect, Enjoy & Laugh from one another, is what she would do, for many times many are hurting & lonely during this season.

Please do this on her honor, so that the Miracle keeps Going & Pray for More as we approached the days of her funeral services.

As these days are long in our time of grief, may it be Sweet & Loving on this Thanksgiving Week.

We Love you All, Lets Celebrate with One Another about her Life.

Eternally Grateful,

Dennis

Thank you.

Thank you to everyone who supported the family. I really appreciate everyone of you.

Funeral Services Dec 1-3, 2011

Hello Everyone,
Funeral services will be held just South of San Francisco Ca.


Cypress Lawn Memorial Park
1370 El Camino Real
Colma, Ca 94014
(650)550-8808
(650)755-0580


Newall Chapel viewing will be on,
Thursday, December 1st, 4-9pm with evening service at 7pm.
Friday, December 2nd, 4-9pm with evening service at 7pm.


Tiffany Chapel Service with following burial after,
Saturday, December 3rd, 1:30pm

Words of wisdom

This is taken from her journal, dated August 20, 2011:

"I don't want to worry about the future anymore - I just want to make the most of each day. I need to enjoy THE moment. Life is short."

Yes, it is.

Who are you living for?

Hebrews 11:13-16

All of these died in faith without having received the promises, but from a distance they saw and greeted them. They confessed that they were foreigners on the earth, for people who speak in this way make it clear they are seeking a homeland. If they had been thinking of the land that they had left behind, they would have had the opportunity to return. but as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God: indeed, he has a city prepared for them.

It's the Good Life. (Written on Nov. 19, 2011)...by Liana

It’s been a very crazy month.

The last weekend of October I planned to go to Seattle with my Mom and two friends for ILD Global, FED (Free Enterprise Day) Conference. That same week, on a tuesday my Mom went to the ER. I went on to Seattle, it was a trip we had already planned for months. The thursday night before I left, we again visited my Mom and they said she potentially had lung cancer. It was something I refused to believe until the results came in. While in Seattle on Friday, I got the text—it truly was. On Sunday while in the conference…found out she was battling stage 4 cancer that had spread to her bones. But even while I was there, I don’t regret going—it may seem cold or cruel, but God had something for me out there. He wanted to continue in me the dream of my parents even though they couldn’t come with me. He also wanted me to learn to dream again too, so I can teach others to do the same.

The Friday after, Nov. 4 we almost thought we’d lose my Mom. She was having A LOT of difficulty breathing so she was put on a BiPap (breathing machine) that forces oxygen into her lungs but then she wouldn’t be able to eat. We thought she’d pass away…but the next day, after much prayer and petition she was off it! She was improving for the whole week after. Friday, Nov. 11 I just remember thinking about how well she was doing after one week!

However…this week, on Wednesday morning she was put in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) because again it was difficult for her to breathe—her right lung had collapsed.
So now my Mom is intubated for oxygen and has a chest tube that inflates her left lung.
It’s been one crazy month. I’ve missed at least one day of school each week since my second term has started! So yes, it’s been one very crazy month…and it’s only been a month since my world has been kind of flipped sideways.

But these things I’ve learned, God is good. He is a real God who truly cares for us. God still works miracles—it’s not something that can happen for only special people. It’s just a faith thing—and you have to have nothing in the way between you and Him.

He’s bringing people back into my life that I haven’t seen in years—in fact, they’re people that I honestly never thought I’d ever see again. It’s crazy how many people care for my family, for my Mom, for my sisters, for my Dad, for me. That all these people would come out here and support us. There’s someone new visiting every SINGLE day! Plus quite a few of the regulars. That all these people love Jesus Christ and are willing to pray for my family—people I don’t even know! Who don’t even know ANYONE in my family! It’s crazy.

It’s still the Good Life. You know why? Because God is good, he’s why I’m not on the floor bawling my eyes out everyday with stinkin’ thinkin’ that “Oh no, my Mom’s gonna dieeeeee!”.

Nope.

I believe God does miracles, and I have hope until the very end. And at the very end, I will still have hope.


Expect a Miracle.

47 Beautiful Years...by Desiree

Heartbroken. Still struggling to find the beauty amidst the pain. It is going to be very difficult creating memories without you, Mom. The holidays are near; I couldn’t feel any more colder than I do now. I can’t even fathom. A month ago was her 47th birthday and she still held that beautiful smile. Only 3 weeks ago, we thought you only had allergies…only to find out that it was Stage IV Lung Cancer. Heaven was God’s only cure. He holds you now. You are healed. You achieved your dreams, except in a matter that is so much greater than what your earthly dreams were. You’re finally holding your son. You’re rejoicing.

God, please give the people who are grieving peace of mind and heart. This loss is so much greater than our own understanding. I still don’t understand why, but I don’t want to drain myself figuring out what I won’t have answered until I get to Heaven. My unanswered questions and unsaid words will have to be put to rest; It is over. She is home.


The support of our family and friends is overwhelming, yet beautifully amazing. The late nights with 30+ people sleeping in the waiting room just to see my mom, the people who traveled from different cities and countries just to support, the blogs and messages sent daily to encourage us. I couldn’t be any more thankful. God is amazing, and I will not cease to believe that miracles are still happening because my mom held a faith so strong. Mom, you are inspiration.


She had a heart for the younger generation - for people our age. She had a passion to help, encourage, mediate, and listen to us. She laughed with us, and weeped with us. She got disappointed in us when we would stray, but also welcomed us with open arms when we would decide to run back. I have never met a mother so passionate about reaching out to those who felt misunderstood, hurt, and lonely. I continue to stand in awe as I see how patient you were with us. You gave us your all, wholeheartedly, and I could not ask for anything more.


Mom, this is not easy. I don’t want to be bitter this time around. Throughout all we have been through - losing my brother, losing my good friends, losing my grandfathers, losing our home - I feel like this just came as a slap in my face. But as I begin to feel selfishly hurt, I know that I can’t handle my grief the way I have always done. I will do something to fulfill your dreams. I will do something to live the legacy you’ve passed on. Mom, thank you so much for leaving behind your box of journals filled with your bible verses, words of wisdom, and the experience you went through as you faced your daily struggles. Your gifts are worth more than gold.


The end of this year will be hard, but I will keep my hope and faith in Him alive.


You are home now. Be free.

TENTATIVE funeral update

Good afternoon everyone,

Tentative funeral date: December 1-3, 2011.

Tentative location: San Francisco/Bay Area

These are TENTATIVE dates and location, everything is still to be determined and announced. If you'd like to come, more information will be posted at a later date.

Thank you.

Expect a miracle.

a random prayer on friday, november 18

"Is this naivety, God?
No, I will believe you. You promised to come and save the day, it may not be the way I expect. But I believe you.

What if the seed has to die so that many will have life?

I guess at least...many will have life."

-----

When my friend, John Manalo passed away earlier this year (he was someone my parents loved and mentored.)I told my Mom, "the seed had to die so that many will have life". We both agreed that although it was painful, many would have life because of His love for Jesus Christ.

And today, I see it the same way. I asked myself then--I asked God, "what if the seed has to die so that many will have life?". Then I guess, since I have no control, if she was to die then she was going to die because God would be glorified more.

The greatest legacy she left is her love for Jesus Christ.

Will you choose to love Him too?

I had a dream that you were so excited to go home and Home is where you are.

My heart is so crushed to know that someone so inspiring, strong and full of wisdom isn’t here anymore, yet my heart is so glad that you are in heaven with our God. I know that this past month has been a struggle for you, Uncle Dennis, Desiree, Liana & Sammi, but God had a plan for you all and His plan was all for His glory. He must increase, but I must decrease. John 3:30.
God works in our lives through pain and tribulations. After the rain and the tears, God’s plan always shines through and his unending love will always be there to comfort us.

Auntie Agnes, because of you I can honestly say that I haven’t felt so close to God and been so inspired to have the heart, knowledge and strength that you have. One day, I really do pray to be someone as strong as you. You are GREATLY loved. I can’t wait to see you again. We miss you and though all of this was too soon, I know I’ll be seeing you again.

-Amethyst

The Virtuous Wife

Auntie Agnes,

Upon reading this passage, I couldn't help but think that God has blessed you to be this model, especially to me. I admire your love and dedication to God, your family and to your friends. Thank you for all the loving kindness.

Your presence will be missed, but I know that you are in God's presence, rejoicing with Evan, taking in the deep breaths of heaven. I will see you again, and I'm so blessed that we share that same promise. I love you Auntie. And I can't wait until we meet again.

Gianel S.

PS: I especially thought of you when I came across v. 25 -26

"Strength and honor are her clothing;

She shall rejoice in time to come;

She opens her mouth with wisdom,

And on her tongue is the law of kindness."

Agnes...we will ALWAYS love and remember you..

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." ~ Psalm 73:26

Ron Lastimosa

Agnes Fought A Good Fight

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. -- 2 Timothy4:7

I love you Agnes, I will see you in heaven and we'll have our ladies' night out again in heaven.

Ester

She is NOW peacefully resting...

“Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints.” ~Psalm 116:15

AGNES Fe Espiritu Seisa

October 20, 1964 - November 21, 2011

She took her last breath at 2:19 a.m. She is now resting peacefully in the arms of her Heavenly Father, reunited with her son, Evan.

Her husband, Dennis, and her girls (Desiree-19, Liana-17 and Sammi-6) and the entire Seisa & Espiritu families THANK ALL OF YOU for your unrelenting LOVE and SUPPORT during this painful and difficult time. Continue to pray for their young family.

Funeral arrangements will be announced in the days to follow. We’ll be posting them here.

“...in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the LOVE of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” ~Romans 8:37-39

I miss you already, my dearest friend. My heart is bleeding but I know you're in a much better place where no worry nor pain resides. And you will be FOREVER YOUNG! (I love our very last photo together at Mercy Hospital, Room 207. You go, GIRL!)

Seisa Girls Arrived Safely in Sacto!

Just got a text from Desiree. They arrived safely in Sacramento. (I have to ask her how fast she was going!) Keep praying.

Most Recent Update on Agnes • 11:30 pm

Just spoke with Dennis, Agnes' oxygen is down to 80s (should be 95s per doctor). Her heart is working double time and still breathing with the help of the machine. If her heart fails, they won't be able to resuscitate her.

Her girls & grandma just left Daly City 45 minutes ago. Pray for a safe drive to Sacramento, and that Agnes will hold on until they arrive at the hospital.

URGENT!

Agnes' OXYGEN is going down.


Prayer warriors, be on our knees!


(Dennis just left me a message at 9:30 pm. I don't why I didn't hear my phone!)

Is Agnes a celebrity???

We visited my sister yesterday. Her condition is still stable, and we are very thankful for the ICU nurses round the clock who are caring for Agnes. We know God’s presence is with Agnes and all over her room. Whenever my wife and I read or share a scripture, prayer or blessing with Agnes, the nurses will drop in and we ask “Are we in your way?” and they respond “Oh no, just continue what you're doing.” Even during those moments, Agnes is still being used for the glory of God.

We went to a fundraiser on Friday night at 7 pm, November 18^th, 2011, given by Fil-Am Evangelical Covenant Church. It was a play called “It’s Cool To Be in the Furnace” and my niece, Liana, was in it. Originally, it was a fundraiser for my sister’s church building but it was turned into a fundraiser for her rising medical expenses.

We loved the creativity of the play. It was about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego set to jazzy tunes.

 

Anyways, when the offering plate was passed around, I felt the love of everyone’s generosity of contributing their donations and hard-earned money towards Agnes’ expenses. This brought tears of joy to see the love that people have demonstrated.

We came back to the hospital around 9 pm. We saw Agnes and she can hear us. When Vernie asked her questions, she can nod. She’s still fighting and clinging to her life. She’s a fighter.

As we were waiting for the elevator in the lobby, a stranger asked me who Agnes was.. 

The reason why he asks is because the last 2 days he was there, he observed this:

·        Crowds (30 or more) of people visiting my sister.

·        Visitors taking up the entire waiting room. 25 people fitting into a waiting room built for 15 people!

·        Crowds of young people

·        Little kids

·        Elderly people

·        Lots of families

All visiting my sister…

He then asked, “Is she someone special? A celebrity, maybe?” I told him she was my sister. 

He walked away with a smile. I felt the inspiration and blessing on his face. Can you believe that? Agnes is still making an impact to strangers.

I pondered about the stranger’s question, "Is she someone special?" The answer is, "She sure is!"

Agnes has touched so many friends that I didn’t even know she had . She’s the mom to every young person they have never had. . She’s their life coach. She’s the friend they never had. She’s a great mom. She’s a great wife to Dennis. She’s God’s child.

She’s my sister.

Expect a miracle.

JaimeE 

Update From Dennis

Hello Everyone,

Some quick update. Yesterday as I left & returned Mercy Hospital in the morning. Nurse asked Agnes if she was having breathing difficulties. She nodded "Yes," which was a Miracle in itself since she is heavily sedated. Nurse Prayed with her after asking Agnes, nodding "yes," if she can pray for her.

A chest tube was added immediately by the staff to the Left lung due to it collapsing as x-ray revealed.


She is surrounded by Great People who OCCUPY Mercy General Hospital who are fervently praying for her.

****

Been having some Beautiful Fall/Winter days here in Northern California.

Sooo much Fall Color with a Touch of Grey due to the recent rains we have received.

It seems Life have given Our Family soo much Color recently in these past days & weeks.

As we approached these Grateful Holidays,Your Prayers, Tears, Quotes, Songs/Music, Time & Resources are Greatly Appreciated in our small corner of the world.

As God performs his Daily Miracles here at Mercy Hospital.

We Celebrate Thanksgiving for each & every moment that God gives to Agnes Fe Seisa.

You Are His

I have called you by NAME; you are Mine.

When you go through deep waters,

I will be with you.

When you go through rivers of difficulty,

You will not drown.

When you walk through the fire of oppression,

You will not be burned up;

The flames will not consume you.

For I AM the Lord, your God, your Savior...

Because you are precious to Me.

You are honored, and I love you.

~Almighty God (Isaiah 43:1-4)


(reposting from 11/2/11)

Quick update for you.

Good afternoon everyone,
Today I visited my mom early in the morning. She was very responsive despite her sedated state. While Desiree and I talked and prayed with her she held our hands and have them a tight squeeze. She also nodded her head when we asked if she could hear us. But the best part is that she opened her eyes a little to look at us! That was wonderful, very wonderful. Her condition hasn't changed since wednesday, no new news. Just keep her in your prayers and expect a miracle, for our God truly is the God of gods and Lord of Kings. Have a wonderful day everyone. (:

Be free.
-Liana S.

As We Enter Into the Holiday Season...

"Singing psalms...and songs and...making music to the Lord in your hearts. And GIVE THANKS for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." ~Ephesians 5:19-20

If you're planning to visit (auntie) Agnes, please be aware that NO children under 12 and NO sickness, please. And if you can, feel free to bring food to share with everyone. She's no longer in Room 207. She has moved to the 3rd floor, Room 372 in the ICU ward. Thank you for all the love and support you've been giving the Seisa-Espiritu families. They are forever grateful.

In His Hand...

...is the LIFE of every creature and the BREATH of all mankind. ~Job 12:10.

Thinking of Aggie. Always.

My friend, Dennis and recent update...

Finally spoke with Dennis, my other dear friend. I've been trying to get ahold of him, texting/FBing/nagging him to get more updates on Agnes' condition but sometimes we forget, I FORGET, that he is overwhelmed. That he is in dire need of some time to recuperate himself. I'm sorry, Dennis. You've been so strong for everyone, we sometimes think you don't need to rest. I forget that you have to take care of other things, too. Paperwork, phone calls, kids to take care of. And on top of all that, trying to find a stable job to provide for your family.

Friends, please keep our dear brother, Dennis in prayer, as much as our dear Agnes.

At any rate, here's Dennis' recent update via FB. Please read and pray...

"Hello Everyone,

Thank You All for Your Love/Support to Our Family.

I'm sorry if I don't come here (FB) that often, It has been a long week for Agnes & her journey fighting thru this cancer ordeal.

Last week she had a life conditional change which was resolved by prayers & BiPap (forced oxygen) machine to her lungs which helped her breathe on her own again.

This past week was filled with positive strides, ie: both lung wall linings starting to get thinner of cancer cells due to the Tarceva medicine, her appetite becoming more with her finishing up some homemade spaghetti. (Thanks, Sharee!)

Things were looking up!

Unfortunately, on Tuesday night, 11/15th, she started coughing again, & was given Zanax, Adavant, Nebulizer, etc...to help with her anxiety/breathing.

BiPap was added at 1 am as she was struggling to breathe, using it on & off thru the night till Wednesday morning.

Around 6 am, Wednesday, 11/16th, she was tiring out & the Rapid Response Team (Mercy) was onsite as her blood pressure climbed up to 160. The team asked for permission to intubate her (oxygen tube down the throat) to help her with her breathing & to lower the blood pressure.

Called my brother, Elmer & family, a friend, for prayer & advice on the matter since this will sedate her, & will have to her breathe mechanically. Intubation was iniated at 6:30 am, transferring her to the 3rd floor to the ICU for observation & evaluation.


CAT Scan was initiated to find out other symptoms. It revealed that the right lung has collapsed/pneumothorax with the left lung doing all the work for several hours prior to intubation revealed also that the left lung was starting to collapse along with the right & intubation has saved her from expiring.


Right lung received a tube/below ribs to help re-inflate/air exchange for Agnes' breathing. Left lung was being considered also for this procedure for possibility of collapsing.


Doctors informed us that the right lung collapsed maybe due to pin hole size puncture caused by the cancer cells making the lung wall porous, also there is NO possibility of cure/repair due to both lungs being filled with cancer cells complication. (Note: She's no longer taking chemo and Tarceva.)


We are asking for your mighty prayers & still Expecting Miracles!
Our goal is have Thanksgiving with our Family/Friends. For this will be Her Finest Days/Hours with Us here on Earth....." ~Dennis & family

Having Thanksgiving dinner together as a family. Simple yet significant request. Each minute, each day is priceless. Make each moment count with your loved ones, will you? Not just on the holidays but throughout the year.

In the meantime, Dennis asks that if you would like to visit, please make sure that you are not sick. Children under 12 cannot visit due to hospital regulations. She no longer resides in Room 207. She has been moved to the ICU, Room 342. When you do visit, pray and read her the bible. She'll like that.

Send me your favorite bible verses, and photos of/with Agnes, too. Dennis reads them to her, and they encourage her more than you know. Write something (an event, a gesture, serious or silly things) you remember about her, things she did or said that made an impact on you. I'll post them on a special page on this blog.

How precious are Your thoughts about me, O God.

They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them;

They outnumber the grains of sand!

And when I wake up,

YOU are still with me! 

~Psalm 139:17-18

A little late, but an update from Tuesday night

Beautiful, gentle, and still

She has a silent grace

Auntie Agnes, a warrior with a resilient spirit fighting at a steady pace.

With the Lord as her Shepard she wills her battles day by day.

Her strong family and friends meeting at intersections, and waiting rooms,

Anticipating the news that she will be renewed once again.

Each day, each hour, each minute, each moment that passes,

We sit , we wait , we pray.

‘Expect a Miracle’ is the motto of her fight.

‘Expect a Miracle’ is what we want.

‘Expect a Miracle’ is what we say.

'Expect a Miracle' is what we pray.

Before I recap tonight, I would like to share with everyone the wonderful evening I was fortunate to spend with Auntie on Tuesday (11/15) night. Before I came to visit her, I was texting her… asking her how she’s doing today and if she would be up for some company. I had heard from my brother (Chris) and Joe that her appetite has grown and she was craving outside food. I asked her if she would like me to bring her anything, and she said yes. I had made some, spaghetti and meatballs, the night before and had some leftover. I wasn’t too sure if this dish would be too complex for her as she was just re-introducing solids into her diet. But, she said sure why not.

I arrived to her awake and waiting for her breathing-treatment and dinner, but I told her I had brought her something (spaghetti and meatballs) that would definitely be worth her stored up energy to at least try. We waited around for a while and chatted a bit about what’s going on with everyone. She intermittently rested between our brief conversations and she mentioned to me that she’s doing okay… but just gets lonely from time to time. I told her I’m here, and won’t leave until another person arrives. And there are a lot of people that may not be here, but are thinking and praying for her constantly.

I noticed that she was coughing a lot that night, more than I’ve noticed before. But with each cough she tried to spit out as much as she could however, she just didn’t have enough energy to cough what was stuck in her chest. She told me that she was a bit short of breath today, but she was now impatiently waiting on her breathing-treatment, which makes things a lot better after. I told Liana that I brought some spaghetti and if her mom didn’t like it, she was more than welcome to have some. But, once I said this, Auntie shook her head and gave me this look like, “ hey, I’m going to try it, don’t give it away yet!”

A couple minutes later, Auntie got her breathing treatment, the girls and company left and she was resting and I told her going to step out for a bit. Then, she perked up and told me she was ready to try my spaghetti! I was totally surprised and got a portion of what I brought for her heated up by one of the nurses. Sure enough, as soon as I handed over the food she devoured it, in between coughing. I was so happy and delighted that she ate! The nurses were also, pleasantly surprised and pleased to hear that she ate J After, she was done, naturally it was time to sleep. The nurse shortly came in to give Auntie some Ativan so she could rest for the night. Auntie asked me to turn off all the lights, and to draw the curtain. As I walked to the chair at the foot of her bed she called out to me and was smiling, and slightly giggling. She asked me, “did you just pet my head?’ And I told her no and that it was just the two of us in the room. I told her to just rest, and I wouldn’t leave until Uncle Dennis arrived. She then closed her eyes and had the most content and at ease face as she fell asleep. Uncle arrived probably 20 minutes later and, I stayed and chatted with him and told him the good news that she actually ate dinner tonight. Without a doubt Auntie has a very resilient spirit. Each day I know, I, among many pray for her recovery.

I know that today, Wednesday (11/16) was a different story as some folks have posted below updates on her condition. I pray that God may comfort her, and lift her up. To allow her to be at ease as she fights this, and grace for her family and friends that are constantly at her bedside. I also pray for the doctors and nurses tending to her day and night, may they have the knowledge and capability to best heal and comfort her.

~Sharee Nuez