Excerpt from Agnes' Journal - April 30, 2011

Joshua 3:7/4:14
God makes leaders and when He does, He is with them.

Joshua 4:24
He performs miracles NOT to prove how great I am but to show how powerful He is. Also to show His mercy and lovingkindness towards one so I don't forget who He is.

From tthe facebook of Dennis S.

http://gerson.org/gerpress/

Saw a documentary of this Gerson Institute, which focuses on the Hollistic treatment that Dr. Max Gerson offered over 50 years ago.

So there is Hope.

The epiloque on the movie was very powerful & significant, for it spoke deeply to me.

I hope it speaks to you too, for your Life does matter.

"For each of us eventually, whether we are ready or not, someday we will come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no minutes, hours or days. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else. Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or owed. Your grudges, resentments, frustrations and jealousies will finally disappear. So, too, your hopes, ambitions and plans. Your "to do" list will expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away. It won’t matter where you came from or on what side of the tracks you lived at the end. Even your gender and skin color will be irrelevant.

So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured? What will matter is not what you bought but what you built. It’s not what you got but what you gave. What will matter is not what you learned but what you taught. What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example. What will matter is not your competence but your character. What will matter is not how many people you knew but how many will feel a lasting loss when you’re gone. What will matter is not your memories but the memories that live in those who loved you. What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.

A Life lived significantly is not one of circumstance as much as it was of unfailing dedication of choice.

A Life that Touched & Cured a dying & suffering humanity then & now."

As of now..

I’m stuck in this uncomfortable transition from hitting “rock-bottom” to getting back up and climbing to the top. Learned so much these past 5 or 6 months of losing a mom. I feel like I went from a child’s mindset to a young adult’s in a matter of seconds. I guess that’s what losing someone does to you. It wakes you up to the harsh realities of this world. A world full of pain, struggle, and despair…but amidst the chaos, we don’t lose hope. Though my heart has been broken, I’m learning to look for the beauty and light in every struggle. I’ve learned how to be alone, because through my silence is when God speaks the loudest. I’ve learned not only how to be grateful, but also to “give until there’s nothing left”. I’ve learned how to just sit back, chill, and listen. I’ve learned not only how to think more in depth, but also how to voice and write down every opinion and thought - and to welcome new insight and different perspectives. I’ve learned how to work harder, stay independent, and not to let negativity hinder me from doing me. I’ve gained confidence that God’s plan is perfect. Fixing my eyes on the prize - what will last forever rather than the temporary fixes in life.

I’ve learned so much, and I still have so much more to go. I’m excited to get a career started, inspire others with it, and be an encouragement to others who share my same struggle. Bigger dreams, countless goals, a creative mind and a blank canvas. 20 years old and still a whole life to live….it’s only just begun.

“That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever. ~ 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18

"though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up." Psalm 70: 20-21

Heal our hearts, God... earthly pain is too much to bear.