Sixth Month Mark.

I took a glance at the calendar and walked on by. Then I walked back. Six months? Six months! Already?

It feels like a lifetime ago...yet as if it as all too soon for six months to have passed by without Mom. Every month I've marked the 21st as a date to remember. This month though...it's a bit different. I can remember May 2011, a trying and tumultuous month--different from this May although still a month for growth. Not just that, but the 19th, 20th, and 21st this month is on Saturday, Sunday, then Monday...just like six months ago. It's just amazing to see how different your life is now compared to six months prior. You know?

It was just the Saturday before Thanksgiving. We just sang together in the downstairs cafeteria side room of Mercy General Hospital for our "small" party of 30. It was raining outside. (See Giving Thanks)

It was just the Sunday we left for San Francisco to visit my Grandma, promising my Mom to be back soon. Hating to leave yet believing that we could leave, maybe getting a little bit too comfortable. It was autumn. The red, orange, and yellow leaves were lovely.

It was just that night we rushed home after only four or maybe five hours in the city. We were just in that room and everyone around us was weeping yet we still were expecting a miracle--a different kind of miracle than the one we received. (See Urgent & Most Recent Update on Agnes - 11:30pm)

It was just early Monday morning when we left with no sleep and puffy red eyes with grief and peace and quiet joy. (See She is NOW peacefully resting,,.)

It was just a few months ago! Surely not six, surely not so long ago!

Stunned--amazed just how things change! It seems to be a resounding theme in my life, "Wow, How things change!".

God takes you from where you were, to where you are, to where you're going to be...You cannot imagine how it'd all turn out, how things will move along...you think He's not there yet you can look back and see His fingerprints on the moments you thought you were at your worst. Like when you feel like he abandoned you or you simply couldn't see Him though trusting He is there. Like a child in a darkened room knowing he or she is safe because someone he or she loves most is sitting in there waiting for him or her to fall asleep. He is here in the dark occurences. He is here in the joyous occasions! He is here for every moment in between.

God, I am just to grateful, so thankful, for my Mom her love for you. The love for you which you instilled in her heart to make each person feel valued, accepted, and loved. That they felt so important in her presence and I am so privileged to have her as my Mom. Thank you for giving her to me as a Mom, although this is one of those nights where I begin to miss her most...I know that she rejoices in being with you--for you love her more than I ever could.Thank you for allowing to be my mentor, one of my most treasured best friends--my Mom.

-Liana S.