As of now..

I’m stuck in this uncomfortable transition from hitting “rock-bottom” to getting back up and climbing to the top. Learned so much these past 5 or 6 months of losing a mom. I feel like I went from a child’s mindset to a young adult’s in a matter of seconds. I guess that’s what losing someone does to you. It wakes you up to the harsh realities of this world. A world full of pain, struggle, and despair…but amidst the chaos, we don’t lose hope. Though my heart has been broken, I’m learning to look for the beauty and light in every struggle. I’ve learned how to be alone, because through my silence is when God speaks the loudest. I’ve learned not only how to be grateful, but also to “give until there’s nothing left”. I’ve learned how to just sit back, chill, and listen. I’ve learned not only how to think more in depth, but also how to voice and write down every opinion and thought - and to welcome new insight and different perspectives. I’ve learned how to work harder, stay independent, and not to let negativity hinder me from doing me. I’ve gained confidence that God’s plan is perfect. Fixing my eyes on the prize - what will last forever rather than the temporary fixes in life.

I’ve learned so much, and I still have so much more to go. I’m excited to get a career started, inspire others with it, and be an encouragement to others who share my same struggle. Bigger dreams, countless goals, a creative mind and a blank canvas. 20 years old and still a whole life to live….it’s only just begun.

“That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever. ~ 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18