Our Dear AGNES

and counting...

2012-02-22T11:05:00.011-08:00

Excerpt from her journal 2/28/10,

Lord,

I Thank You for giving me the ability to take it one day at a Time and Worry is No Longer my weakness.

Thank You for teaching Me to Give everything to You, to Rest on Your Promises and to Live by Faith.

Thank You for Bringing Me to a New Higher Level & Teaching Me to Fully Depend on You.

Thank You for Teaching Me to Listen and Discern your Voice and for the Future Plans you have Laid out for Me and My Family.

In Jesus Precious name, Amen.

Expect A Miracle

3 months...

2012-02-21T09:55:00.001-08:00

Taking the Initiative Against Depression by Oswald Chambers

2012-02-19T22:55:00.000-08:00

Feb. 17, 2012

Arise and eat—1 Kings 19:5

The angel in this passage did not give Elijah a vision, or explain the Scriptures to him, or do anything remarkable. He simply told Elijah to do a very ordinary thing, that is, to get up and eat. If we were never depressed, we would not be alive—only material things don’t suffer depression. If human beings were not capable of depression, we would have no capacity for happiness and exaltation. There are things in life that are designed to depress us; for example, things that are associated with death. Whenever you examine yourself, always take into account your capacity for depression.

When the Spirit of God comes to us, He does not give us glorious visions, but He tells us to do the most ordinary things imaginable. Depression tends to turn us away from the everyday things of God’s creation. But whenever God steps in, His inspiration is to do the most natural, simple things-things we would never have imagined God was in, but as we do them we find Him there. The inspiration that comes to us in this way is an initiative against depression. But we must take the first step and do it in the inspiration of God. If, however, we do something simply to overcome our depression, we will only deepen it. But when the Spirit of God leads us instinctively to do something, the moment we do it the depression is gone. As soon as we arise and obey, we enter a higher plane of life.

Just a daily reminder to arise and eat. To do the simple things, do not scorn the little things. This goes out to everyone who feels like they've lost hope, arise and eat! If you ever feel down, remember...

Expect a miracle daily. (:

-Liana S.

Growing Pains

2012-02-08T17:35:00.001-08:00

I'm ony 19 years old, yet life feels so tough. Why?

It’s so easy to focus on the things I lost. My family’s home, my mom, close friends, strength and inspiration… yet I seem to forget that God can give, but He also can take away. And in all circumstances, I have nothing else left but a thankful heart. I still thank Him for giving me what he did, even if it was for a short time. It’s hard, but there is nothing left to do but continue forward.

Nothing will ever replace what was lost. A mother’s wisdom. A friend’s shoulder to cry on. A home’s warmth and comfort. The memories made are endless and will always remain. This may be the toughest thing to swallow. But it’s not over. Dark times serve a purpose. Reality hits hard…but life is still a gift. Hoping to use my experiences as a way to uplift and help others who will go through the same struggle.

Love your parents because as much as we think they won’t grow older, they do. Cherish your friends because you never know when you’ll lose one. Make the most of being in school because tuition will only go up from here. Push through, be patient and work hard with getting into classes despite if you're wait-listed or not because the ones who are determined enough to get into a class will surely get into it. Be thankful if you live at home because you’ll miss it once you leave it. Work hard if you have a job because it will definitely pay off later. Forgive others as He has forgiven you, and most of all, forgive yourself.

The pain I feel from losing people only motivates me to love others more. I’ll cherish what I have now, so that whenever it leaves me again, I’ll proudly say that I made the most of what was given to me.

"So we're not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever. "

~ 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18 (The Message)

2012-02-08T07:40:00.000-08:00

Good morning, everyone!

I'm not sure if it was last night or the night before when I was laying in bed thinking about music and BAM! I realized that I might've not shared this song! Which would be quite a blunder on my part since during my Mom's month long journey at the hospital, this song helped sustain me and many of those around me. So how could I not share it? Be blessed!

Thank you, God that we are alive today.

Expect a miracle and have a beautiful morning!

2012-01-22T02:00:00.000-08:00

19 minutes until it marks the anniversary of two months and one day since you went ahead of us. We sang this at John's celebration of life, both of you guys are saving a place for me now.

Yeah, I still believe in expecting a miracle. Thank you, God, that life here is beautiful. After life, there is death, and LIFE again--renewed in you, God.

Expect a miracle.

Like Mother, Like Daughter

2012-01-18T12:55:00.000-08:00

My mom and dad at their wedding. My mom's wedding dress she also designed and created.

Me, 20 years or so later, in my mom's wedding dress. Taken by Christine Leong at Golden Gate Park, San Francisco CA.

Details were sewn by hand.

The designer and her daughter. (2010)

Her simplistic, classy style.

I successfuly crashed a Textiles course today, and I all I could think of is how much I'd love to hear her advice on apparel construction/design right now. Her primary passion was sewing/fashion design, and ironically, I'm a current Pre-Apparel Design and Merchandising major. She always joked about how I followed after her. :)

Devotional Text from Jeremy Seisa

2012-01-14T16:08:00.000-08:00

(photo taken by Gabriel Torneros)

"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see." ~ Hebrews 11:1

So this devotext is based off of one phrase, which is: Expect A Miracle. This phrase, as some of you may know, has been a big part of my life as of late. Being the rally cry for my Auntie Agnes as she battled cancer, I know there is a solid definition out there for this phrase. But to me, it means two things: have faith in God, and count your blessings. The first one goes hand-in-hand with what I talked about two days ago. I talked about those days or long stretches of time when everything seems to go wrong, when nothing seems to go your way, when giving up seems like the only option. My advice then is to lean on God in those times. That right there is hard enough. We, as human beings, want to take matters into our own hands, want to fix things ourselves. Lifting our problems up to God, at times, is the last thing we do. Keeping our faith in God, to me again, is even harder; especially if things don't get better as soon as I expected. Lifting things up to God, and having nothing happen right away, sucks. It's difficult. It's heart-wrenching. But it's part of faith, it's part of growing in our faith. One pattern I see myself going through when I encounter a long-lasting problem is that my confidence in God seems to rise the longer my problem goes on. It starts off with: "I can fix this." Then to, "Okay, God. I need a little help." Then to, "Okay, I need a lot of help, God." Then, "I can only do so much, can You fix this?" Finally, "Of course you can fix this, God. What was I thinking?"

See, we, or at least I, think we can fix any problem. But when we reach that point when we realize we really can't do anything anymore, our confidence in God skyrockets. Which is what I discourage you guys to do.

When God hits you with the big problems in life that seems to last forever, don't inch towards fully believing with that utmost confidence that God will take care of things. I encourage you guys to, right off the bat, believe that God will take care of you. "Don't just believe in miracles, expect them." (quoted my cousin) And I'm not saying to expect in an arrogant way. But really have the confidence that God has you in His hands. Believe that things will get better in time. Know that God has you on His perfect path, and things are going according to His plan. Have faith in our Father. Expect a Miracle.

Miracles happen every day. Waking up is a miracle. Being alive is a miracle. Living freely is a miracle. Having food to eat and water to drink is a miracle. Having any amount of money is a miracle. All this ties with my second part of my meaning of the phrase: Count your blessings. From the things we see, to the things we don't. From the things we notice, to the things we see as expected now, all are blessings. All are miracles. God can give and take away at any second. You, yes you, are a walking miracle. So is it hard to expect a miracle?

Expect God to carry you in whatever you're going through, but also know that you're not going through it alone. Your struggles are my struggles, your burdens are my burdens in this shared life. You are never alone.

Keep at it. Always look to God. Keep growing in God. Keep praying for each other. Always encourage each other. Always expect a miracle. And continue to show God's love to this world.

My Last Visit...

2012-01-13T01:08:00.000-08:00

"Your unfailing LOVE is better than LIFE itself; how I praise You!" ~Psalm 63:3

The month of November was eradicated from my 2011 calendar. And December was not the same. Holidays in all will never be the same. But in spite of the sadness that enveloped the following days/weeks, I found solace and joy knowing that during the Christmas season, we celebrate the reason why the Father sent His only Son. That we may have LIFE. Eternal Life.

These images were from my last visit with my dear friend at Mercy Hospital with several friends. And the last time I would ever touch her (and I had to wear gloves!) I'm exceedingly sad whenever I think about her and whenever I see photos of her. And it's around January that we would usually get together. But knowing she's in a much better place and that I would see her again brings much comfort. So I'm holding on tight to God's Word, unfailing love & promises while enjoying the gift of Today.

“You are my place of refuge. You are all I really want in life." ~Psalm 142:5

“How frail is humanity! How short is life..." ~Job 14:1

"Turn my eyes from worthless things, and give me life through Your Word." ~Psalm 119:37

"For the life of every living thing is in His hand, and the breath of every human being." ~Job 12:10

You gave me life & showed me Your unfailing love. My life was preserved by Your care. ~Job 10:12

"For the Spirit of God has made me, and the breath of the Almighty gives me life." ~Job 33:4

Dishes

2012-01-10T22:06:00.000-08:00

Written after avoiding the dishes for two days then realizing they simply wouldn't go away until I washed them.

When I was little I didn't realize how dishes can just pile up and up and up...Why my Mom would sigh when she looked at the neat but towering stack that we placed one after another thoughtlessly. I remember night after night--many of them late, she would pull on her yellow rubber gloves and begin rinsing and then loading and arranging each dish into the washer. I'd walk right up to her, often catching her during a hushed prayer, give my love and a small hug before heading off to bed.

She once told me that one of her best times to pray was while she did those mundane dishes.

Just the sound of the running water and an occasional chink! of utensils, the rest of the house was usually silent. She'd breathe in peace and now I can understand just a little better why.

It wasn't until my Junior year that I began to take over that job, doing it consistently. Sometimes I'd feel like I was stealing that time of hers to pray by doing it, but now I see that I was just being trained to do the same.

There is a calmness that overtakes me while the dirt of the day is being washed away. I take pleasure in seeing the dish become sparkling and new. At the end of the day, it really is no fun to dread that huge pile, but someone has to do it. And while you do it, you might as well have your mind be active as your hands be productive.

In short, don't waste your time.

Even during the mundane you can still exercise your mind and your faith, how much time do we often waste staring off into space while we wait for the line to end, for the bell to ring, or for something to be done?

It is good to rest (I'm all for it!), but don't get too much--don't get too little either!

Expect a Miracle!

-Liana S.

2012-01-10T12:19:00.000-08:00

That's the only quiet, secure place
in a noisy world,
The perfect getaway,
far from the buzz of traffic.

God holds me head and shoulders
above all who try to pull me down.
I'm headed for his place to offer anthems
that will raise the roof!
Already I'm singing God-songs;
I'm making music to God.

Psalm 27: 5-6 (The Message)

Taken at Agnes Seisa's Viewing at Cypress Lawn, Daly City. Photo Credits to Chris Pangilinan.

Happy New Year, everyone!

2012-01-03T19:11:00.000-08:00

I know that many of you could not make it out to my Mom's celebration of life, so I wanted to here the list of blessings (my Mom wrote down for the year 2009) that I shared at the celebration.

From the journal of Agnes Seisa

Blessings 2009:
Married to my best friend for 20 years
Opportunities to practice ILD principles
Being an advisor/mentor to Intersection
Secretary to Fil-Am Covenant
Sunday school facilitator
Sharpening my cooking skills
Got off Calworks
Dennis working nearby (City of Sac/East Lawn/Air Force)
Learning to live by faith and relying on God to supply all of our needs
Peaceful family
Unexpected opportunities to receive
Free from worry: surrendered my life to God.

Count your blessings and may your year be full of living hope and joy through every season!

Expect a miracle, friends!

-Liana S.

Give Until There's Nothing Left

2011-12-29T14:24:00.000-08:00

"Give Until There's Nothing Left"

No one told me
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
'Cause how much is too much to give you?
Well I'll may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else

Yeah I'll give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give

No one told me
How bad I need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived
To that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want
All you have to offer (to offer)
So I'll offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else

And I'll give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)

Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left to
Give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left

Sometimes it seems
Like all I ever do
Is ask for things
Until I ask too much of you
But that's not the way (that's not the way)
I wanna live (I wanna live)
I need to change (I need to change)
But something's got to give
Yeah something's got to

Give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left to give
Give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give
Give until there's nothing left
I'll give

I am reminded of a day when I listened to this song and my Mom caught the words "So I'll offer myself and I'll give until there's nothing else."

We were in the process of moving out of our home of 11 years. She paused for a moment and said, "Yes. That's what we did. We've given until there's nothing left. We've given even when there's nothing left."

Finances were really tight at the time, but we always made sure to give ourselves away. She'd often tell me that she and my Dad are the type to give you the shirt off their backs if it meant they could help fill the needs of someone else. She'd say that it sometimes felt weird accepting help from others because she was so used to serving others, she always wanted people to feel valued, accepted, and loved. The way she did that was by serving them with food, being that listening ear, sitting in silence, sometimes a hug, the late chats into the night, waking early to drive me to school, etc.

She truly didn't have any regrets. She gave of her heart, her time, money, food, anything until there was nothing else to pour her life and love into the lives of others so they would know that God truly is real.

But even though she said, "Yes, I have given until there's nothing else." She also told me, "It's time to be refilled again." For she knew where her true strength came from, though exhausted mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically she still gave because she knew that each person was truly special and that while she may be weak, our God is strong enough.

She was in a real slump at the time, she told me she didn't want to serve anymore, she just wanted to rest and sort of take a break for awhile. Even so, she still served and loved because no matter how she felt she knew that someone needed to be heard, someone needed that love of Jesus too. She gave of herself in that stage of hurting in order to get over the problems we faced, 'cause we weren't the only ones who were facing trouble--although we may have felt alone. She knew and she reminded me that there are other people out there who needed love too, so she asked God to restore and refill her again to showcase His power and His love through her.

And that's where her true strength came from. That was the secret to how she would give until there's nothing else.

She gave until there was nothing else, and I do believe our dear Agnes, my Mom, heard the words,

"Well done, good and faithful servant."

So my question is, have you given until there's nothing else? Can you answer that truthfully? Are you feeling empty? Out in the cold? Does this Christmas season sadden you or remind you of the things lost? Then drink and be refilled again by the love of Christ and then give His love away--when you give love away your problems don't go away, but they do get put into the right perspective. Rejoice! As long there is still one more breath, there is still hope.

For our foe or problems are big, and we are small, but our God is bigger still.

-Liana S.

Christmas Traditions

2011-12-29T12:07:00.000-08:00

Mom's Grave @ Cypress Lawn, 12/28

Hyatt Hotel @ Embarcadero Plaza

Lingad brothers finishing a puzzle until 1am (pictures taken by Auntie Christine)Nong Noel making Musubi

Dad sharing and giving thanks at the table

Playing "Say Anything" until 2am:

A very special thank you to the Lingad and Leong family for coming over to stay the night in our tiny apartment. It really brought joy to our Christmas to have close family/friends stay over like old times! Missing mom hurt the most because usually she would be sitting at the table with Auntie Tina and Auntie Christine, catching up and laughing all night. I'm sure she would have really enjoyed everyone else cooking for her instead of her being in the kitchen all the time.

Nonetheless, we REJOICE this Christmas season. It is not over yet! We still have a New Year to look forward to.. a time to look forward to a brighter future that God has promised us. Our days are still shadowed, and we are still feeling the pain of loss, of grief. Reminiscing upon the annual traditions we had with mom since childhood - ice skating in Embarcadero, cooking dinner, watching classic movies... But our hope is not lost. It still remains in Jesus Christ, because He is the only one who will never disappoint us.

Enjoy your precious time with your family and friends. Make an effort to see all of them other than just once a year for the holidays. Be thankful. Enjoy the little things. REJOICE because Jesus is alive. O Come Let Us Adore Him!

A Candle Lit Service....

2011-12-25T02:56:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

A Grateful Christmas to All of you.

Attended a Saturday Evening Christmas Service at Cornerstone in San Francisco with the family.

This song played as we began the Candlelight Service and it really spoke to me that life is fleeting & yet we are secured in our little corner of the world....

Expect a Miracle

A Heartwarming Tribute

2011-12-23T00:14:00.000-08:00

Read this TRIBUTE from Mrs. Rubio (Olive), one of Agnes' younger friends. Heartwarming.

Fran & Olive, Portland, OR • Photograph by Gabriel Boone

It's Been One Month...

2011-12-21T19:14:00.000-08:00

"I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every other part of my body is broken too." ~Missy Altijd {Reflecting on her home-going. Click HERE.}

Agnes' Journal Entry: Friday, 10-8-10

2011-12-21T19:08:00.000-08:00

Thank you Lord Jesus for pointing out something that I never thought about: hurrying. Hurrying to get from one place to another--from one task to another w/out savoring anything aside from checking it off my list. No wonder my whole life feels like a "daze". I never bothered to drink it all in--savoring every moment. I was too busy cleaning and tending to the mundane that I forgot to "really be there".
I'm sad now because Desiree is in college--out of the house and pretty much on her own. Liana is on her way too and Sammie is already 5.
When I look at her, I feel like I savored her the least. I didn't get to and barely remember her as a baby. I Blinked and She became a little girl.
It's time to slow down, drink in, and savor every moment.

My dear friends, savor every moment.
Our life is dear and very brief.

Expect a miracle.

-Liana S.

"I don't feel like this is the end..."

2011-12-16T06:24:00.000-08:00

Those were Fe's words when we first visited her at the hospital in Room 217. This was the first few days in the hospital. She was really anxious because of her breathing. She was concerned that she was going to be all alone. She told me that no one was staying with her the first few days when she as in the hospital. She was afraid.

I felt helpless as she was trying to breathe. The only comfort we could give her playing worship music from the ipad. She calmed down.

We stayed with her and I tried to stay strong. I could not help my tears from streaming down my face. I couldn't stand seeing her struggling to breath. She kept looking at me but didn't want to stare at me. She had this concerned look on her face. I told her that I loved her. She took one look at me and said "I can't cry."

I kissed her on her forehead and I told her "I love you".

After all these years, I hardly said this to her.

Her words are forever ringing in my head..."I don't feel like this is the end...".
When she said this I thought the Lord was going to extend her life on earth. He had other plans.

It's not the end. She is forever worshiping and praising the Lord. She's with our older sister (Connie) who lived 2 weeks and then passed away with a heart condition. She's with Evan. My nephew who passed away in 9 days. She's with our dad who passed away in 2008.

Lord, I've learned my lesson. Take one day at time. Live the day like it was your last and don't take others for granted.

My heart is still tender from my loss...

"Agnes' brother"

I Choose a Better Way to Live!

2011-12-15T23:31:00.000-08:00

I choose a better way to live!

Henceforth, each morning, I will awake and fall to my knees and give thanks to God for that only He can bestow–a new day. This is my most priceless possession. If ever I should feel ungrateful and treat this miracle lightly, I need only open my morning newspaper to the obituary page and scan the long list of names there–names of people who would be most pleased to change places with me despite my problems. There are no problems in a cemetery. I would rather be here than there. I am grateful for this fresh opportunity. I will show gratitude in everything I do, this day. A sundial only counts the hours of sunshine, but I will count them all. I will treasure each minute. I am immortal until my work is done and I have only begun. Thank you for these new hours, God. I needed this day to prove that your faith in my ability was not misplaced. I depart from home smiling. The birds–when did I last hear them singing? How fortunate I am to be here.

-The Choice by Og Mandino

Just something that once helped me a few months ago. My Mom read this book too, I think. If not, she at least read the other books by this author, Og Mandino.

Expect a miracle.

-Liana S.

New Opportunities....

2011-12-13T19:58:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

Agnes sent this to me on FB message on May 7 2009.

I hope this will inspire & motivate you to move forward during these difficult times....

SuccessQuote: "There is no security in this life. There is only opportunity." Douglas Macarthur

Chris Widener's Action Point:
Most people spend their time trying to keep what they already have or stay at the level they have already attained. This is human nature.

The problem is that keeps us focused on the wrong things, especially if we are going to continue moving on and becoming more successful.

Instead, we ought to accept the fact that there is no security and therefore nothing to spend our time worrying about.

This then, allows us to focus in on our goals, dreams and visions - the opportunities that we desire to strive for.

It unleashes our potential because we are focused on the right things!

Action Point:
Think of the things you worry about losing. Mentally accept that there really is no security in them anyway.

Now take some time, and continue to do this regularly, to think about your opportunities.

Every time you begin to worry, take that thought captive and refocus on your opportunities.

2011-12-12T18:17:00.000-08:00

To All Family & Friends,

A friend posted this on Intersection's facebook group wall and I found it very fit to post it here. I hope this inspires and blesses you like it has to me. Loss isn't easy, but sometimes we just need to be reminded that God really does UNDERSTAND how we feel when we lose someone. Sometimes letting go is what we need to do to let God's purpose unravel. God worked through Auntie Agnes while she was here and will continue to work through her even while she is in Heaven. I know it.

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:7

God bless 8]

-Harold

Letters of Encouragement

2011-12-12T17:04:00.001-08:00

Hi Liana, Desiree, and Uncle Dennis,

If it’s all right, I just wanted to share with you an experience I had this morning in the hopes that it might encourage you and your family. I am very sorry that I did not have the opportunity to know your mother better, but the few times we did meet and converse are very precious to me, as she was extremely kind and gentle in every way. Compassion is few and far between these days, and thus worthy of being cherished forever wherever it is found.

This morning they began the closing worship set at church like normal. Though I’m ashamed to admit it, my mind was already wandering to what sort of groceries I needed to pick up at the store on my way home and the million things I had to do this Sunday before work started the next day. Then, at the very end, they played the song “O Praise Him” originally performed by the David Crowder*Band. It’s a song I have heard many a time before so the words came almost mechanically when it started.

In the first verse of the song, they sing the lines, “The sound of angels’ songs.” In Matthew, Christ promised that when two or more were gathered in His name, He would be there. There have been a few times in my life when I have indeed experienced the radical presence of God and it’s been tremendous. This time, though, it was far different than anything that I’ve ever had the privilege of feeling before.

When that line came across the lyric screen and the words passed my lips, everything suddenly fell away and I started sensing something deep and profound. In that moment, when singing about how the angels are also singing, I felt heaven open up and collide with earth, like the saints and angels gathered around the Heavenly Father’s throne were singing the same words, too, in time with all of those gathered there in that sanctuary. The chorus goes on to say, “O praise Him, for He is holy,” and I felt like all the universe was reverberating with that statement over and over, that everyone, those still on earth and those already returned to the Creator, were singing in time.

In all that, though, I truly and honestly felt your mother’s presence. There was a spirit of utter, blissful joy there—peace, happiness, and praise. It was as real as if I could see her with my physical eyes. I knew she was standing there at the wounded feet of Christ and singing those words too, that He is Holy, that she was raising a joyous noise for our King. And in that moment I was so overwhelmed with the sense that she was so incredibly happy, smiling, with shining eyes. I felt that she was so real even amidst the thousands upon thousands of saints and angels standing their praising the Lord. It was so poignant, so powerful, so direct…I can’t even describe it. And in a way, it made me envious that I wasn’t there worshiping at the Father’s feet too, and yet so understanding of the fact that she was present, always, and not really gone.

I’ve heard it said that Christ is the bridge between heaven and earth, life and death, that His sacrifice makes it so that those two realms, the mortal and immortal, don’t have to be separate. I don’t think I really understood that until today, that God is real and those saints of His that He calls home are with Him—and with us, too, in that cloud of witnesses that Hebrews promises stands about us and cheers us on until it’s our turn to bow at His feet in heaven.

I want you to know that you and your family’s strength, hope, faith, and love over the past few weeks has been both encouraging and convicting to me, in an incredible way that’s really helped me realize so many important things about my own life and faith. Thank you for sharing this. Thank you for helping me see. I pray for you and your family constantly, but I ultimately know that God loves you all so much more than any words can express.

Thank you so very much.

With love,

- Malia Rose

Please tag your photos to my Dad's facebook!

2011-12-11T22:23:00.000-08:00

Hi guys!
If you have any photos from the funeral/Celebration of Life my Dad requests that you would post them on facebook and tag him in them so we can consolidate everyone's photos. 'Cause you know, everyone has different perspectives so we'd like to see what yours is too.

Thank you. (:

Expect a miracle!

-Liana S.

In Remembrance

2011-12-10T12:05:00.000-08:00

Christine Ancheta Balagtas, Agnes' old roommate/friend, didn't get the chance to share her tribute at the funeral service last Saturday, 12/2nd, due to time constraint. I'm posting her story here. Please read on and be extra blessed and continue to "remember."

Over the last several weeks we prayed for a miracle, a healing that would astonish the doctors. God did, in fact, answer that prayer, as He answers all prayers with either a Yes, No, Not yet, or I have something better. God answered our prayers by providing a healing that surpasses all earthly healings, He provided an eternal healing, free from sickness, pain and tears.

“Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.” ~James 1:12

“THINGS WHICH EYE HAS NOT SEEN AND EAR HAS NOT HEARD, AND which HAVE NOT ENTERED THE HEART OF MAN, ALL THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM.”

Today we remember and celebrate our dear sister, Agnes. I could only imagine that when God was fashioning those traits that would define friendship that she gave Agnes without measure. He was clearly not sparing, filling her with those qualities that would precede and follow her all the rest of her days. More than mere words, Agnes spoke with the power of her deeds. Her faith was not dead. Her faith was demonstrated in her selfless care, compassion and a willing readiness to give herself completely to whoever God put in her service. As roommates together in the late 80’s, several defining moments are clear.

As a single mother 23 years ago, Agnes was actually with me, as I delivered my daughter Elizabeth. She made sure that I would not be alone, that she would provide the comfort and support that she knew would be needed as a person without a husband.

Later on as I started to get on my feet, she sacrificed her reputation and purchased a car for me under her name (and I made the payments). She knew that I needed a car, and again, she sacrificed herself for me despite the personal risk to her credit.

5 years ago, after almost 10 years of not being in touch because of family, she and Dennis eagerly welcomed me and my family to Elk Grove, when we 1^st moved to the Sacramento area. In typical Agnes fashion, she brought food and refreshement, as she knew the stress of moving. She offered herself throughout the week for meals and whatever was necessary for us to adjust to the new community.

Through life’s struggles, including marital issues that couples face, Agnes was always there every step of the way. Instead of passing judgment on me and my situation, she was only a listener and offering caring empathy. It was the power of her example, coupled with her sensitivity, that inspired me to continue my journey

All in all, with Agnes I never was alone. Agnes was not a loud, nor extroverted person, who would be the attention of the party so to speak. Instead, Agnes was the gentle, quiet, but deeply loyal, abidingly faithful friend who understood. In the words of a former UN Secretary, “It is more noble to give yourself completely to one individual than to labor diligently for the salvation of the masses.”

Join me in remembering Agnes by celebrating what she would have everyone celebrate today. And that is not HER life, but most importantly the Life of Her Saviour.

Remember Agnes by remembering her Saviour.

Remember Agnes by remembering that life is not measured by the things that we accumulate but instead the difference and service you are to others.

Remember Agnes by remembering that we are all sick and dying but an eternal healing awaits those that who don’t work in this life, but rest in the eternal abiding righteousness of Jesus Christ.

Remember Agnes, by remembering her life creed: What is my only comfort in life and in death? "That I am not my own,but belong—body and soul, in life and in deathto my faithful Savior Jesus Christ. He has fully paid for all my sins with His precious blood,and has set me free from the tyranny of the devil. He also watches over me in such a way that not a hair can fall from my head without the will of my Father in heaven; in fact, all things must work together for my salvation. Because I belong to Him, Christ, by his Holy Spirit, assures me of eternal life and makes me wholeheartedly willing and ready from now on to live for Him."

In short, remember Agnes by remembering Jesus, the Resurrection and the Life.

~Christine Ancheta Balagtas

(with husband, Jerry, and children, Elizabeth, Grace & Benjamin)

MEAL TRAIN • Chugga Chugga Choo Choo

2011-12-09T22:50:00.000-08:00

"Nobody can do everything, but everyone can do something." ~Author Unknown

Just to let you know that there's a MEAL TRAIN going on for the Seisa family. Many have been asking how one can help. Well, this is definitely one sure way to help. You can sign up for a date when you can deliver or have the food delivered to their home. Adapting to life without MOM to take care of their daily needs, especially their meals, is going to take some time to adjust. See if you have a date or 2 you can spare.

Thank you for all the LOVE you've been showering the family.
Have a blessed Christmas celebration.

"Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these, you did it to Me." ~Matthew 25:45

From a friend.

2011-12-08T18:52:00.000-08:00

"How do you think Christy and I feel? How do you think we cope when this happens to us?"

by Cecilia Naughton-Perez on Monday, November 21, 2011 at 10:33pm

Last night was the first time in a long time I couldn't sleep...usually when my head hits the pillow I'm done...I spent the next three hours thinking about this wonderful woman, why her story caught my attention and captivated me. Agnes is her name. I remember thinking what a beautiful name, sounds like she was full of goodness, saint-like. Agnes means pure and holy. I didn't know her at all, only through my friend Christine's beautiful heartfelt posting, and blog. Christine asked us to pray for her dear friend who was fighting for her life.

You see it was just three weeks ago that Agnes was diagnosed with lung cancer. As her situation unfolded and certain medical issues arose, I didn't understand some terms so I asked my daughter, Christy, who is more knowledgeable about medical jargon to join in to read about her and soon after, Cerita, other daughter, started to follow her blog too. So all three of us were following her blog and her day to day fight and struggles.

Her story truly tugged at our heartstrings. Although we did not know Agnes, we learned that she has so much dedication to God, to her family and her friends. She is the kind of person who is truly beautiful inside and out. She is a very special person who poured her life and love into all the people she loved and a light to all the people that she met. Our heartfelt condolences to her three beautiful young daughters, husband, family, friends, and to her dear friend, Christine.

I was so saddened, so touched to read about Agnes passing this morning. Years ago, I always wondered how doctors cope when they have so many patients sick and die while in their care. How do they handle life upon seeing patients fighting for their life, all the procedures they have to perform and all the machines and life support that they see their patients hooked up to survive. I will never see or understand what happens behind the scenes in the hospital the way the doctors see them.

A couple hours before Agnes passed. I read in the blog that her oxygen was low, and her family was rushing to be with her, so I sat down near my son-in-law, Cisco, with a heavy heart and asked him "Cisco, tell me the meaning of all this what is happening to her?" I listened to Cisco describe to me all that was happening, and painted a picture for me what they do to patients, what they see, and what they say to terminally ill patients and their families. As I looked into my son-in-laws eyes, he said, "Mom Cecile, you read all about her in a blog, you don't know her personally, so don't be so hard on yourself, then he went on to say, "How do you think Christy and I cope with this kind of situation that happens almost everyday. We see critically ill patients, take care of them, get to know them for a day, for a week, month or so, get to know their families and sometimes they die. How do you think Christy and I feel? How do you think we cope when this happens to us?"

How do doctors cope? Now I understand why Agnes came into my life, for me to experience to care about someone I didn't know and to feel the pain of losing them even for the short time I was able to peek through a window into her life. Just the way Christy and Cisco experience them. As I listened to Cisco answer my question, I realized I will never fully understand what goes on behind the scenes in the hospital room, ER or OR and how it may have affected both of them. I now have a better understanding that some days will be more difficult and there will be some days they will come home with a heavy heart and full of sadness, but I know they will always put a happy face on and cope the best way they know how, by running or walking as soon as they come home or just by being quiet not saying a word. And yes, now that I think back, there were days when its much more unbearable that they both talked and shared about their day while tears formed in their eyes.

After talking to Cisco I felt so much admiration and respect for both of these young doctors-to-be. I've always believed that God put us here on earth to touch, to learn, make a difference and impact each other and create a ripple effect here on earth. I didnt know Agnes but she came in my life to enlighten me, I've learn from here on to be more understanding, to have more patience, be aware, conscious and sensitive, to my children, when they come home from a long day and night from the hospital. For me to be on another level of mothering, to learn to have the heart of a "Doctor's Mother."

~Cecilia Naughton-Perez

Thank you for sharing. (:

On the journal....

2011-12-07T09:34:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

It has been a Incredible Weekend of Outpouring of Love & Support of family, friends old & new who attended Agnes' funeral.

Our family & I are Truly Blest to have such wonderful relationship's that developed throughout these past days & weeks.

It would be fitting to share this page from Agnes' Journal, which I will be adding from time to time to encourage & inspire each and one of you who had a peak into her journey of life while she was here with us on earth.

Dated: Feb 1, 2010

"Heavenly Father,

I, Thank You for helping me through this day and for providing all of our basic needs.

Thank You for creating in me the desire to be self-disciplined.

Thank You so much for teaching me that my Identity is found in You, and not in material possessions or money.

Thank You Lord for providing the tools I need to create the habits I need in order to fulfill my dream & purpose.

Thank You for making me Complete in You.

Although it was painful at first, Thank You so much for teaching me to live in the present, leave the past behind & give my future into your hands.

Thank You for helping me overcome worry & fear.

Thank You for a healthy marriage & a peaceful family.

Thank You for the many opportunities that you have provided to uplift & encourage others, to make them feel Loved & Valued.

Thank You so much for what You have done & will continue to do through me.

Thank You for saving me.

In Jesus Name, Amen"

"...iron sharpens iron..."

2011-12-07T03:45:00.000-08:00

"As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another."

So, I did not intrude on their prayer. I just happened to be at the right place at the right time with my camera phone in my pocket. 8] As I snapped a couple shots, I overheard Liana pray for them both. It was such a sight to see because I saw peace and calmness through their prayer and for someone to portray this at their own mother's funeral is more than words could describe. For them to be there for each other in prayer was of utmost joy to my heart.

They are both strong women and both exemplify such great strength and wisdom amongst all this that I know Auntie Agnes is smiling so proudly from heaven. She has raised such godly young ladies and as I read their blogs and listen to them talk I feel a great deal of Auntie Agnes through them. They have enveloped her character and her wisdom. She must be so proud of her daughters.

Auntie Agnes was THE virtuous woman described in Proverbs 31 and I have no doubt in my mind that her daughters will be the same. 8]

God bless

-Harold

Celebrating the Life of Agnes Seisa.

2011-12-06T00:12:00.000-08:00

This weekend was a life CHANGING experience. Being around the youth again, rededicating, singing worship for the first time... it really brought me back to my true self and true love for God by honoring Auntie Agnes. She along with her family have inspired me in countless ways, that allowed me to return back to Sacramento changed. The presence of God was so strong and everyone's spirit was uplifting. People were even saved at the services as well! Auntie Agnes is STILL accomplishing her mission. This weekend brought me a lot closer to Uncle Dennis, Intersection, The Seisa Family and Friends and most definitely GOD. I am very thankful... Though we have come together on a sad occasion, we REJOICE for we know she is with the Lord. I hope I can speak for many when I say that we've all returned home INSPIRED.

EXPECT A MIRACLE. For Auntie Agnes and her effect on everyone is proof! God is truly at work.

Here are a few shots I had taken or have from this weekend.
- Chris

To see the full album I have visit:

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150416358440687.359863.625515686&type=1&l=c0b0b15825

2011-12-05T23:18:00.000-08:00

Hello all!

I just wanted to let you know that if you'd like to contribute a post to this blog (a photo, your memories, your experience with my Mom, etc), please email your email address and I will invite you as an author OR email me your entry and I will post it here.

Remember, this blog really isn't about us. It's about the moments we created, the lessons we learned, the faith that has been strengthened, it's not just for this family, it's for you. So that everyone can be encouraged and edified. You need not know my Mom personally, but how has this impacted you? What's your experience? What has God done in your life because of knowing her? Do you have a favorite memory? Anything at all? As long as you keep it positive.

My email address is thinksimplicity@yahoo.com

THANK YOU. (:

Expect a miracle.

-Liana

Celebration • Day 2

2011-12-03T08:52:00.000-08:00

"It's natural to grieve. It's supernatural to rejoice." ~Pastor Alois Ramos

Yes, we grieve. And we will grieve every time we remember her. The fruits of her labor for Christ is so evident. I loved hearing the testimonies of both the young and not so young. But one does not have to speak on the podium to know it. You see it. You hear it. You sense it. Thank you, Father, for such a wonderful friend in Agnes. We rejoice knowing that she is with you. I cannot wait to see her again.

It was another night of celebrating Agnes' life. And today we will say our final farewell. Service will be at the Tiffany Chapel (NOT at the Newall Chapel where the past 2 services were held).

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." ~Romans 8:28

Location for Saturday

2011-12-03T03:33:00.000-08:00

The Tiffany Chapel

1370 El Camino Real
Colma, CA 94014

Celebration of Life Day 2

2011-12-02T12:51:00.000-08:00

Today is Day 2 of the Celebration of the Life of my sister Agnes Fe. I have my nieces sleeping over with their friends and cousins. Sleeping bags, make-up bags, suitcases sprawled out on the living room floor and now worship music playing next door all honoring our sweet Agnes Fe. Thank you Lord for her life.....

:) Vern

Celebration • Day 1

2011-12-02T08:49:00.000-08:00

What do I really want? I want to make the vision You gave me become a reality. My biggest fear is dying without my vision being fulfilled. ~Agnes (jounal entry on 5.19.10)

Agnes' mom & Dennis having some quiet moment with her earthly body just before the guests arrived

Daddy's little girl

Friends like this old friend (not that he's old =.) started streaming in. (BoyNoel)

I am so proud and SO blessed by these girls. Liana (c) and Desiree (r)

Sisters ROCK!

Another old friend (Gene)

Kristie, one of the many nieces, who initially wrote on this blog about Agnes' medical condition, and just one of the many who helped Dennis with medical terms he couldn't even understand. I took care of her when she was little, then she took care of my kids when they were little. And when she has kids, my kids can take care of them. Cycle of life =.)

Just some of the wonderful ATEs (até means older sister even tho' you're not related) from Faith Bible Church. They so stylin'

Young people are part of Agnes' & Dennis' life ministry. Ronnie (l) chewing away, John Paul (r)

(r) Jig - everyone knows him as the friendly mechanic; (r) Jerry, Dennis' brother in law.

This is just a few snapshots I took last night. It has been a crazy month/week but worth it all. I hope to see more friends tonight and tomorrow. It was so great to see a lot of "old" friends and meet people from Agnes' different walks of life. This weekend is indeed a celebration. I say, we should celebrate more often.

Hope to post more photos later!

Have a glorious Friday. I will see some of you all weekend long. What a TREAT!

Hasta la vista,

~(auntie/ate) Christine

**See my latest post at Tumblr. I dare you (preferably, gentlemen) to do something about it.**

Sand.

2011-12-02T08:34:00.000-08:00

Auntie,
You've affected my life in so many positive ways and allowed me to see the true beauty in a single moment. You and your family are an inspiration to me and this blog entry I created was inspired by you.

" I don't want to worry about the future anymore. I just want to make the most of each day. I need to enjoy THE moment. Life is Short." - Agnes Seisa.

A single grain of sand is just a speck to the human eye.
Though it is tiny, it holds value.
Every individual grain takes part of something so much larger than itself;
It creates hills, shores and beaches.
Without these grains of sand, there wouldn’t exist such beautiful things.

A moment in our lives is just like a simple grain of sand.
It’s just a minuscule portion of our entire lifetime to come.
At times, they may seem unimportant,
But one day, we will realize they are what mattered the most.

It’s not about Fame, Money or Power.
Life exists in the details; the moments.
Moments are the small things we may take for granted,
and don’t recognize until it’s no longer there.
A moment. Like a kiss, a hug, an opportunity, a tear, an experience.
Those are moments, for they pass.

An acceptance and openness to every moment in life is what makes life fulfilling.
Life certainly has its up and downs,
Sharp turns and surprises around each corner,
But we must make the best of every situation, every moment and every day.
’There’s a blessing in every lesson.’

Dwelling in a moment is not healthy.
Moments are meant to come and go,
while each serving a purpose.
You can’t hang onto them forever.
If it changes the momentum of your swing,
let it.

May we live in each moment and enjoy the present.
Accept all good and bad, for they maintain the balance of life.
Life will not always seem great.
There will be tough times, but even then those are truly valuable.
It’s through trial and tribulation do we discover who we truly are
and what we are truly made of.
Do not get comfortable in happiness or grieve without end.
There will always be change.

Love everyone, never grow weary of doing good deeds, enjoy the good times,
find the beauty in struggle and always remain faithful.
All things and all paths happen and cross with and for a purpose.

Life is made up of all the little moments and how we deal with them.
Life is a gift, Life is fragile, and Life is short.

Let us appreciate the people and the small things in life;
before their tomorrow is taken away.

—- Ephesians 5, 15-17

“Be Wise”

Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is.

- Chris Pangilinan

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Missing You

2011-12-01T13:42:00.000-08:00

Hi Fe, Had short conversations with your older girls, today. How I see and hear so much of you in them. Thank you for raising such beautiful daughters and giving Jimmy and I lovely, great & godly nieces...miss & love u, Vern :)

For my mother... I love you.

2011-12-01T01:00:00.000-08:00

"His lord said to him, Well done, good and faithful servant; you have been faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things: enter you into the joy of your lord." ~ Matthew 25:23

A miracle, my friend, is an event by which faith is created. - George Bernard Shaw

2011-11-30T02:53:00.001-08:00

Expect a miracle, friends.

For in the end there will be joy.

Giving Thanks.

2011-11-30T00:09:00.000-08:00

Thank you to every single visitor who has taken the time and effort to visit my mom. This is not even half of the visitors she had each night! It's beautiful seeing old friends coming from different cities all gather under one roof again as if no time has passed. Amazing to see different families and relatives we haven't seen in maybe years.

Your support, encouragement, prayers are more than enough. I only hope that our family can be the same dependable friends that you have all been to us. Let us cherish our relationships with each other while it lasts; life is short. Don't take our friends and family for granted! Thank you to God for He is good with blessing us with people in our lives that will be the shoulders to cry on.

~Desiree Seisa

Expect A Miracle: Support Agnes' Fight // dance workshop

2011-11-29T23:52:00.000-08:00

Beautiful outcome.
Thank you to Press P.L.A.Y., Intersection, and Step I Dance and Fitness in Sacramento for hosting this event! We are blessed with the best of friends and family.

Miracles are happening.....

2011-11-29T23:28:00.000-08:00

This past weekend, we had several events that occured in memory of our Loved One, Agnes Fe.

The Ministry Event at Church of the Highland, San Bruno Ca. & Press Play Dance Workshop in Sacramento Ca. was Magnificent & a Success.

A family member shared with me that they went to Church of the Highland to Support our Friend Pastor Hugo who hosted & Preached a Powerful Message that touch many Lives this past Saturday.

I too was personally touch also by so many people who attended the Press Play Dance Workshop, who hugged us, shared kind words & encouraged our kids that it made it a Truly a Miracle for All, who attended both Events.

We are Truly Blest to have Friends, Family & Unknown Friends who made it Special & Amazing for All of Us.

Lets Keep the Miracle Going, For the Miracle is You, in this Grateful Holiday Month.

Celebrate Agnes Fe Espiritu Seisa

2011-11-28T00:38:00.000-08:00

"I will make you beautiful forever,
a joy to all generations."
~Isaiah 60:15
And she will be forever young and beautiful,
and truly a JOY to this generation and the next.

Join us as we celebrate HER life.
Cypress Lawn Memorial Park
VIEWING

Thursday & Friday, December 1st and 2nd

4:00 - 9:00 pm (evening services at 6:30 pm)
Newall Chapel
Note: if coming from north (Serramonte), make a left across the Cypress Lawn sign.

Chapel Burial Service

Saturday, December 3rd

1:00pm (followed by burial)

2011-11-27T22:37:00.000-08:00

I've been told I'm a writer. Sometimes I like to think of myself as one. But this time around its been Desiree and Dad doing all the expressing and writing while I simply sit back stunned.

Hello Mom,
I'm not praying to you or anything. Just to make that clear, it's just easier to pretend I'm talking to you. The difference between praying and talking to you is that in prayer I know that Jesus Christ will answer me back, talking to you I guess I'm having Him relay the message?

We visited the house last night (our home was foreclosed in May). I had a bad feeling about visiting because I knew it'd bring back memories and cause us to cry...but I suggested we go anyway. We went. The night was foggy, the lights gave off that sort of eery, creepy glow. We parked in front of the house, rested for awhile. I half-thought someone would peer out their window and think we were stalkers. The house looked nice, cleaner than it has been in years. We imagined opening the door, immediately hit by the warmth of the small lamp lights, the smell of beef with mushrooms or freshly baked chocolate chip cookies with walnuts. We kick off our shoes, I bring mine in my room and kick Desiree's shoes to be alined with the wall...or set hers on the shoe rack. We'd tell you how much fun we had at the Expect a Miracle dance workshop, how Sami danced and was the most adorable cutie ever and I actually sort of began to gain rhythm.

I told Desiree that if we still lived there I don't think I'd be able to stand it. So God really knows what he's doing when he told us to leave our comfort zone--our home. Be free. I just really wanted to bring up my thankfulness that you prayed and visited almost every apartment complex so we'd be together under one roof--a home of our own. It's true what Desiree said to me, a house is just a house. And I told her, yes. That's not home anymore--it's too clean.

The reason why we ache so much is because this is not our home. Our true home is where you are, we were not made to live here forever. But that doesn't mean live in the past--but it doesn't mean don't grieve either. It just means that...

Ah, in the end there will be joy.

Auntie you left us with your legacy, and we will continue to show it to others.

2011-11-27T21:49:00.000-08:00

Just got a text from a family friend:

-Lelaine

2011-11-27T18:22:00.000-08:00

Dezi, Your blog post was read by Pastor Hugo Tejada last night at the Church of the Highlands fundraiser/ night of worship. It blessed the attendees last night. BTW...There were 500 people in attendance who did not know Fe but were touched by your blog post.

Your message is creating more impact on people's lives than you'll ever know...

http://agneseseisa.blogspot.com/2011/11/47-beautiful-years.html

Expect A Miracle

2011-11-26T02:09:00.001-08:00

Hello all,

If you haven't heard already, Press P.L.A.Y. & Intersection is throwing a workshop later today (Saturday 11.26) in honor of Auntie Agnes. It is $5 minimum donation to take all 4 classes (ballroom, contemporary, breaking, hip-hop) and all proceeds will go to the Seisa's. It is located at Step 1 Dance and Fitness on the corner of 19th & T (1920 T St. Sacramento, CA 95814).

Come celebrate with us the beautiful life of Auntie Agnes and let us remember her legacy of a being a true follower of Christ. Let us continue to expect miracles because God makes them happen everyday. She was a miracle herself because her wisdom and love inspired a lot of us to change for the better. Let the light she shined in us continue to shine upon others.

"...be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity." -1 Timothy 4:12)

God bless you all 8]

-Harold

2011-11-25T14:24:00.000-08:00

"It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time." ~Barbara Kingsolver

Memories in the making--taken one summer evening just hanging out. We love the balmy Sacramento summer evenings compare to our San Francisco cold summers so time with the Seisas was always an inevitable and welcomed idea.

Fun Times...

2011-11-25T14:13:00.000-08:00

"Below is a picture of Ate Agnes and Kuya Dennis at Twin Peaks. They had shared with us that 'back in the day' they used to rent a convertible for the anniversary for a day and they hadn't done that in awhile. So... Intersection got some funds together and I was able to reserve a converitble from SFO Airport. John Paul had planned for them to go to San Francisco to have a 'Family Day' but we planned all along to meet up at Twin Peaks to hand the keys over for a day. So when they got to Twins we came about 5 minutes after and acted like we were there to hang out to and it was just by coincidence that we crossed each other. We told them that we wanted to take a look at a different side of Twins, in front of where the convertible was parked, and walked by it and said "that's a really nice ride!". Kuya Dennis agreed and we pulled out the keys and said "so then take it for a day!" Their faces were priceless! Haha!" ~Crystal Decastillo

And thank you for a house full of people I love. Amen. ~Terri Guillemets

2011-11-24T14:08:00.000-08:00

Mom (46), Sami (5), Dad (45), Desiree (18), Me/Liana (16), JP (23, adopted as bro. 3 years ago)

This year.

Edit: NOT last Year.

Laughter is the shortest distance between two people. ~ Victor Borge

2011-11-24T13:25:00.000-08:00

Dennis & Agnes' 20th anniversary, taken at Twin Peaks, San Francisco.

Photos

2011-11-24T12:34:00.000-08:00

If you have any photos with or of Agnes, please send them to desiree.seisa@gmail.com or burn them on a CD and have it delivered to Desiree Seisa by Monday, November 28, 2011.

Thank You.

A Family Member's Love......

2011-11-24T11:15:00.000-08:00

Hi Uncle Dennis, Desiree, Liana & Sammie,

First of all I wanted to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving. You all have shown so much strength and faith in the last month that I am inspired to write. Although I've only known you all for 3 years, I'm so honored to be apart of your family. I only spoke with Auntie Agnes a few times via family gatherings and facebook messages so I was really happy to read about her on the blog. It gives those of us that didn't know her so well the chance to get to know her now. She was an amazing woman, I just wish I could've had more time to get to know her like everyone else did.

I wanted to share with you our visit with her this past Saturday. We thought she was sleeping so we didn't want to stay very long and while Mike was holding her hand he said, "We love you Auntie". She replied by squeezing his hand. I was amazed because despite exhaustion, she still was trying to communicate. I had slipped a rosary in her hand when we first walked in so since I knew she was listening I went on to tell her why I brought it. I said, "Auntie I know you're not Catholic but I am and I put the rosary in your hand to remind you that we're all praying for you", she nodded her head. Then I said, " Don't worry about Sammie and the girls. We'll take care of them". She nodded again and this time a tear came out of her right eye. Her heart rate also jumped from the low 100's to 116. It made me remember that as much as we all would miss her, she would miss all of you, her family, the most. This Thanksgiving I am thankful for those last few minutes with her. She said so much without even saying a word. She loved you all so much and I thought that maybe I should tell you this story so you remembered just how much it must have taken her to go on the be with God even though she would have to wait a while to see you all again.

Last night I was saying my prayers and I had a vision of her. She was somewhere in the clouds in a meadow of some sort. There were white puffy clouds everywhere and she was laughing. I've seen Auntie Agnes laugh before, she has an amazing smile. Maybe since I've only had a few encounters with her I've never seen her have a carefree laugh before but this laugh was different. It was continuous. She had joy in her eyes. You could see it all over her face. She was wearing a white dress shirt and so was the little boy she was lifting and twirling around in circles. He looked about 7 or 8 years old. He had black hair but I couldn't see his face because he had his back towards me. I'm thinking this was Evan and this is their Heaven. I wish I could put this vision on video so I could show you how radiant Auntie was. She is truly in a better place. No pain, no illness, just happiness. I hope this puts your hearts at ease a little. It made me cry when I had this vision as it still does as I write this.

This Thanksgiving I will continue to pray for Auntie Agnes' soul and I'm also praying for all of your peace. May we be thankful for the years we got to spend with Auntie. Her legacy lives on with you. Mike and I love you all and hope that you call on us whenever you need anything. Help us make our promise to Auntie Agnes that we would take care of you.

Happy Thanksgiving,
Sheryll

kicking it off!

2011-11-24T04:02:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving officially starts today!

We all shared a nice plate of spaghetti in honor of Aunty Agnes because this was the last meal that she was able to eat, so from now on we will always eat spaghetti every Thanksgiving to celebrate her life.

I'm very thankful of the enormous impact that she had in my life. I'm the way that I am today because of her wisdom and teaching. Her legacy remains with us and we will continue it!

Encouraging An Air Force Family.....

2011-11-23T16:38:00.000-08:00

Spoke to a Wonderful Lady today........

"Your Air Force family is thinking of you. We send you our love, and will support you in any way we can.

It was so uplifting to speak with you on the phone.

I called hoping that I could in some small way I could lift your spirits, and yet, I found myself being lifted by you.

You must have an amazing faith and wonderful family. "

My condolences and love to you and your girls,

Lt Col Cynthia A. Doolittle, PE, MS

Grateful Thanksgiving....

2011-11-23T13:11:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

We Thank You All for your Support in your Kindness, Friendship & Sacrifices thru offering us meals, services & donations.

Our family request & Our Dear Agnes would agree to, is that put aside any grieving in this Thanksgiving Holiday.

She would like for you to Invite family, friends or people who may not have a meal to share with on this Grateful Holiday, on behalf of Agnes' Legacy.

Lets Re-Connect, Enjoy & Laugh from one another, is what she would do, for many times many are hurting & lonely during this season.

Please do this on her honor, so that the Miracle keeps Going & Pray for More as we approached the days of her funeral services.

As these days are long in our time of grief, may it be Sweet & Loving on this Thanksgiving Week.

We Love you All, Lets Celebrate with One Another about her Life.

Eternally Grateful,

Dennis

Thank you.

2011-11-23T11:27:00.001-08:00

Thank you to everyone who supported the family. I really appreciate everyone of you.

Funeral Services Dec 1-3, 2011

2011-11-23T09:43:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,
Funeral services will be held just South of San Francisco Ca.

Cypress Lawn Memorial Park
1370 El Camino Real
Colma, Ca 94014
(650)550-8808
(650)755-0580

Newall Chapel viewing will be on,
Thursday, December 1st, 4-9pm with evening service at 7pm.
Friday, December 2nd, 4-9pm with evening service at 7pm.

Tiffany Chapel Service with following burial after,
Saturday, December 3rd, 1:30pm

Words of wisdom

2011-11-22T17:01:00.001-08:00

This is taken from her journal, dated August 20, 2011:

"I don't want to worry about the future anymore - I just want to make the most of each day. I need to enjoy THE moment. Life is short."

Yes, it is.

Who are you living for?

Hebrews 11:13-16

2011-11-22T14:16:00.000-08:00

All of these died in faith without having received the promises, but from a distance they saw and greeted them. They confessed that they were foreigners on the earth, for people who speak in this way make it clear they are seeking a homeland. If they had been thinking of the land that they had left behind, they would have had the opportunity to return. but as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God: indeed, he has a city prepared for them.

It's the Good Life. (Written on Nov. 19, 2011)...by Liana

2011-11-22T13:48:00.000-08:00

It’s been a very crazy month.

The last weekend of October I planned to go to Seattle with my Mom and two friends for ILD Global, FED (Free Enterprise Day) Conference. That same week, on a tuesday my Mom went to the ER. I went on to Seattle, it was a trip we had already planned for months. The thursday night before I left, we again visited my Mom and they said she potentially had lung cancer. It was something I refused to believe until the results came in. While in Seattle on Friday, I got the text—it truly was. On Sunday while in the conference…found out she was battling stage 4 cancer that had spread to her bones. But even while I was there, I don’t regret going—it may seem cold or cruel, but God had something for me out there. He wanted to continue in me the dream of my parents even though they couldn’t come with me. He also wanted me to learn to dream again too, so I can teach others to do the same.

The Friday after, Nov. 4 we almost thought we’d lose my Mom. She was having A LOT of difficulty breathing so she was put on a BiPap (breathing machine) that forces oxygen into her lungs but then she wouldn’t be able to eat. We thought she’d pass away…but the next day, after much prayer and petition she was off it! She was improving for the whole week after. Friday, Nov. 11 I just remember thinking about how well she was doing after one week!

However…this week, on Wednesday morning she was put in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) because again it was difficult for her to breathe—her right lung had collapsed.
So now my Mom is intubated for oxygen and has a chest tube that inflates her left lung.
It’s been one crazy month. I’ve missed at least one day of school each week since my second term has started! So yes, it’s been one very crazy month…and it’s only been a month since my world has been kind of flipped sideways.

But these things I’ve learned, God is good. He is a real God who truly cares for us. God still works miracles—it’s not something that can happen for only special people. It’s just a faith thing—and you have to have nothing in the way between you and Him.

He’s bringing people back into my life that I haven’t seen in years—in fact, they’re people that I honestly never thought I’d ever see again. It’s crazy how many people care for my family, for my Mom, for my sisters, for my Dad, for me. That all these people would come out here and support us. There’s someone new visiting every SINGLE day! Plus quite a few of the regulars. That all these people love Jesus Christ and are willing to pray for my family—people I don’t even know! Who don’t even know ANYONE in my family! It’s crazy.

It’s still the Good Life. You know why? Because God is good, he’s why I’m not on the floor bawling my eyes out everyday with stinkin’ thinkin’ that “Oh no, my Mom’s gonna dieeeeee!”.

Nope.

I believe God does miracles, and I have hope until the very end. And at the very end, I will still have hope.

Expect a Miracle.

47 Beautiful Years...by Desiree

2011-11-22T01:16:00.000-08:00

Heartbroken. Still struggling to find the beauty amidst the pain. It is going to be very difficult creating memories without you, Mom. The holidays are near; I couldn’t feel any more colder than I do now. I can’t even fathom. A month ago was her 47th birthday and she still held that beautiful smile. Only 3 weeks ago, we thought you only had allergies…only to find out that it was Stage IV Lung Cancer. Heaven was God’s only cure. He holds you now. You are healed. You achieved your dreams, except in a matter that is so much greater than what your earthly dreams were. You’re finally holding your son. You’re rejoicing.

God, please give the people who are grieving peace of mind and heart. This loss is so much greater than our own understanding. I still don’t understand why, but I don’t want to drain myself figuring out what I won’t have answered until I get to Heaven. My unanswered questions and unsaid words will have to be put to rest; It is over. She is home.

The support of our family and friends is overwhelming, yet beautifully amazing. The late nights with 30+ people sleeping in the waiting room just to see my mom, the people who traveled from different cities and countries just to support, the blogs and messages sent daily to encourage us. I couldn’t be any more thankful. God is amazing, and I will not cease to believe that miracles are still happening because my mom held a faith so strong. Mom, you are inspiration.

She had a heart for the younger generation - for people our age. She had a passion to help, encourage, mediate, and listen to us. She laughed with us, and weeped with us. She got disappointed in us when we would stray, but also welcomed us with open arms when we would decide to run back. I have never met a mother so passionate about reaching out to those who felt misunderstood, hurt, and lonely. I continue to stand in awe as I see how patient you were with us. You gave us your all, wholeheartedly, and I could not ask for anything more.

Mom, this is not easy. I don’t want to be bitter this time around. Throughout all we have been through - losing my brother, losing my good friends, losing my grandfathers, losing our home - I feel like this just came as a slap in my face. But as I begin to feel selfishly hurt, I know that I can’t handle my grief the way I have always done. I will do something to fulfill your dreams. I will do something to live the legacy you’ve passed on. Mom, thank you so much for leaving behind your box of journals filled with your bible verses, words of wisdom, and the experience you went through as you faced your daily struggles. Your gifts are worth more than gold.

The end of this year will be hard, but I will keep my hope and faith in Him alive.

You are home now. Be free.

TENTATIVE funeral update

2011-11-21T12:31:00.000-08:00

Good afternoon everyone,

Tentative funeral date: December 1-3, 2011.

Tentative location: San Francisco/Bay Area

These are TENTATIVE dates and location, everything is still to be determined and announced. If you'd like to come, more information will be posted at a later date.

Thank you.

Expect a miracle.

a random prayer on friday, november 18

2011-11-21T12:13:00.000-08:00

"Is this naivety, God?
No, I will believe you. You promised to come and save the day, it may not be the way I expect. But I believe you.

What if the seed has to die so that many will have life?

I guess at least...many will have life."

-----

When my friend, John Manalo passed away earlier this year (he was someone my parents loved and mentored.)I told my Mom, "the seed had to die so that many will have life". We both agreed that although it was painful, many would have life because of His love for Jesus Christ.

And today, I see it the same way. I asked myself then--I asked God, "what if the seed has to die so that many will have life?". Then I guess, since I have no control, if she was to die then she was going to die because God would be glorified more.

The greatest legacy she left is her love for Jesus Christ.

Will you choose to love Him too?

I had a dream that you were so excited to go home and Home is where you are.

2011-11-21T10:18:00.000-08:00

My heart is so crushed to know that someone so inspiring, strong and full of wisdom isn’t here anymore, yet my heart is so glad that you are in heaven with our God. I know that this past month has been a struggle for you, Uncle Dennis, Desiree, Liana & Sammi, but God had a plan for you all and His plan was all for His glory. He must increase, but I must decrease. John 3:30.
God works in our lives through pain and tribulations. After the rain and the tears, God’s plan always shines through and his unending love will always be there to comfort us.

Auntie Agnes, because of you I can honestly say that I haven’t felt so close to God and been so inspired to have the heart, knowledge and strength that you have. One day, I really do pray to be someone as strong as you. You are GREATLY loved. I can’t wait to see you again. We miss you and though all of this was too soon, I know I’ll be seeing you again.

-Amethyst

The Virtuous Wife

2011-11-21T09:17:00.000-08:00

Auntie Agnes,

Upon reading this passage, I couldn't help but think that God has blessed you to be this model, especially to me. I admire your love and dedication to God, your family and to your friends. Thank you for all the loving kindness.

Your presence will be missed, but I know that you are in God's presence, rejoicing with Evan, taking in the deep breaths of heaven. I will see you again, and I'm so blessed that we share that same promise. I love you Auntie. And I can't wait until we meet again.

Gianel S.

PS: I especially thought of you when I came across v. 25 -26

"Strength and honor are her clothing;

She shall rejoice in time to come;

She opens her mouth with wisdom,

And on her tongue is the law of kindness."

Agnes...we will ALWAYS love and remember you..

2011-11-21T08:29:00.000-08:00

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." ~ Psalm 73:26

Ron Lastimosa

Agnes Fought A Good Fight

2011-11-21T07:45:00.000-08:00

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. -- 2 Timothy4:7

I love you Agnes, I will see you in heaven and we'll have our ladies' night out again in heaven.

Ester

She is NOW peacefully resting...

2011-11-21T02:25:00.000-08:00

“Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints.” ~Psalm 116:15

AGNES Fe Espiritu Seisa

October 20, 1964 - November 21, 2011

She took her last breath at 2:19 a.m. She is now resting peacefully in the arms of her Heavenly Father, reunited with her son, Evan.

Her husband, Dennis, and her girls (Desiree-19, Liana-17 and Sammi-6) and the entire Seisa & Espiritu families THANK ALL OF YOU for your unrelenting LOVE and SUPPORT during this painful and difficult time. Continue to pray for their young family.

Funeral arrangements will be announced in the days to follow. We’ll be posting them here.

“...in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the LOVE of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” ~Romans 8:37-39

I miss you already, my dearest friend. My heart is bleeding but I know you're in a much better place where no worry nor pain resides. And you will be FOREVER YOUNG! (I love our very last photo together at Mercy Hospital, Room 207. You go, GIRL!)

Seisa Girls Arrived Safely in Sacto!

2011-11-21T00:53:00.000-08:00

Just got a text from Desiree. They arrived safely in Sacramento. (I have to ask her how fast she was going!) Keep praying.

Most Recent Update on Agnes • 11:30 pm

2011-11-20T23:40:00.000-08:00

Just spoke with Dennis, Agnes' oxygen is down to 80s (should be 95s per doctor). Her heart is working double time and still breathing with the help of the machine. If her heart fails, they won't be able to resuscitate her.

Her girls & grandma just left Daly City 45 minutes ago. Pray for a safe drive to Sacramento, and that Agnes will hold on until they arrive at the hospital.

URGENT!

2011-11-20T21:59:00.000-08:00

Agnes' OXYGEN is going down.

Prayer warriors, be on our knees!

(Dennis just left me a message at 9:30 pm. I don't why I didn't hear my phone!)

Is Agnes a celebrity???

2011-11-19T09:15:00.001-08:00

My mom, wife and I visited my sister yesterday. Her condition is still stable, and we are very thankful for the ICU nurses round the clock who are caring for Agnes. We know God’s presence is with Agnes and all over her room. Whenever my wife and I read or share a scripture, prayer or blessing with Agnes, the nurses will drop in and we ask “Are we in your way?” and they respond “Oh no, just continue what you're doing.” Even during those moments, Agnes is still being used for the glory of God.

My wife and I went to a fundraiser on Friday night at 7 pm, November 18^th, 2011, given by Fil-Am Evangelical Covenant Church. It was a play called “It’s Cool To Be in the Furnace” and my niece, Liana, was in it. Originally, it was a fundraiser for my sister’s church building but it was turned into a fundraiser for her rising medical expenses.

We loved the creativity of the play. It was about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego set to jazzy tunes.

Anyways, when the offering plate was passed around, I felt the love of everyone’s generosity of contributing their donations and hard-earned money towards Agnes’ expenses. This brought tears of joy to see the love that people have demonstrated.

Vernie and I came back to the hospital around 9 pm. We saw Agnes and she can hear us. When Vernie asked her questions, she can nod. She’s still fighting and clinging to her life. She’s a fighter.

As we were waiting for the elevator in the lobby, a stranger asked me who Agnes was..

The reason why he asks is because the last 2 days he was there, he observed this:

· Crowds (30 or more) of people visiting my sister.

· Visitors taking up the entire waiting room. 25 people fitting into a waiting room built for 15 people!

· Crowds of young people

· Little kids

· Elderly people

· Lots of families

All visiting my sister…

He then asked, “Is she someone special? A celebrity, maybe?” I told him she was my sister.

He walked away with a smile. I felt the inspiration and blessing on his face. Can you believe that? Agnes is still making an impact to strangers.

I pondered about the stranger’s question, "Is she someone special?" The answer is, "She sure is!"

Agnes has touched so many friends that I didn’t even know she had . She’s the mom to every young person they have never had. . She’s their life coach. She’s the friend they never had. She’s a great mom. She’s a great wife to Dennis. She’s God’s child.

She’s my sister.

Expect a miracle.

JaimeE and Veronica

Update From Dennis

2011-11-19T06:42:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone,

Some quick update. Yesterday as I left & returned Mercy Hospital in the morning. Nurse asked Agnes if she was having breathing difficulties. She nodded "Yes," which was a Miracle in itself since she is heavily sedated. Nurse Prayed with her after asking Agnes, nodding "yes," if she can pray for her.

A chest tube was added immediately by the staff to the Left lung due to it collapsing as x-ray revealed.

She is surrounded by Great People who OCCUPY Mercy General Hospital who are fervently praying for her.

****

Been having some Beautiful Fall/Winter days here in Northern California.

Sooo much Fall Color with a Touch of Grey due to the recent rains we have received.

It seems Life have given Our Family soo much Color recently in these past days & weeks.

As we approached these Grateful Holidays,Your Prayers, Tears, Quotes, Songs/Music, Time & Resources are Greatly Appreciated in our small corner of the world.

As God performs his Daily Miracles here at Mercy Hospital.

We Celebrate Thanksgiving for each & every moment that God gives to Agnes Fe Seisa.

You Are His

2011-11-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

I have called you by NAME; you are Mine.

When you go through deep waters,

I will be with you.

When you go through rivers of difficulty,

You will not drown.

When you walk through the fire of oppression,

You will not be burned up;

The flames will not consume you.

For I AM the Lord, your God, your Savior...

Because you are precious to Me.

You are honored, and I love you.

~Almighty God (Isaiah 43:1-4)

(reposting from 11/2/11)

Quick update for you.

2011-11-18T15:46:00.000-08:00

Good afternoon everyone,
Today I visited my mom early in the morning. She was very responsive despite her sedated state. While Desiree and I talked and prayed with her she held our hands and have them a tight squeeze. She also nodded her head when we asked if she could hear us. But the best part is that she opened her eyes a little to look at us! That was wonderful, very wonderful. Her condition hasn't changed since wednesday, no new news. Just keep her in your prayers and expect a miracle, for our God truly is the God of gods and Lord of Kings. Have a wonderful day everyone. (:

Be free.
-Liana S.

As We Enter Into the Holiday Season...

2011-11-18T10:34:00.000-08:00

"Singing psalms...and songs and...making music to the Lord in your hearts. And GIVE THANKS for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." ~Ephesians 5:19-20

If you're planning to visit (auntie) Agnes, please be aware that NO children under 12 and NO sickness, please. And if you can, feel free to bring food to share with everyone. She's no longer in Room 207. She has moved to the 3rd floor, Room 372 in the ICU ward. Thank you for all the love and support you've been giving the Seisa-Espiritu families. They are forever grateful.

In His Hand...

2011-11-17T18:45:00.000-08:00

...is the LIFE of every creature and the BREATH of all mankind. ~Job 12:10.

Thinking of Aggie. Always.

My friend, Dennis and recent update...

2011-11-17T15:22:00.000-08:00

Finally spoke with Dennis, my other dear friend. I've been trying to get ahold of him, texting/FBing/nagging him to get more updates on Agnes' condition but sometimes we forget, I FORGET, that he is overwhelmed. That he is in dire need of some time to recuperate himself. I'm sorry, Dennis. You've been so strong for everyone, we sometimes think you don't need to rest. I forget that you have to take care of other things, too. Paperwork, phone calls, kids to take care of. And on top of all that, trying to find a stable job to provide for your family.

Friends, please keep our dear brother, Dennis in prayer, as much as our dear Agnes.

At any rate, here's Dennis' recent update via FB. Please read and pray...

"Hello Everyone,

Thank You All for Your Love/Support to Our Family.

I'm sorry if I don't come here (FB) that often, It has been a long week for Agnes & her journey fighting thru this cancer ordeal.

Last week she had a life conditional change which was resolved by prayers & BiPap (forced oxygen) machine to her lungs which helped her breathe on her own again.

This past week was filled with positive strides, ie: both lung wall linings starting to get thinner of cancer cells due to the Tarceva medicine, her appetite becoming more with her finishing up some homemade spaghetti. (Thanks, Sharee!)

Things were looking up!

Unfortunately, on Tuesday night, 11/15th, she started coughing again, & was given Zanax, Adavant, Nebulizer, etc...to help with her anxiety/breathing.

BiPap was added at 1 am as she was struggling to breathe, using it on & off thru the night till Wednesday morning.

Around 6 am, Wednesday, 11/16th, she was tiring out & the Rapid Response Team (Mercy) was onsite as her blood pressure climbed up to 160. The team asked for permission to intubate her (oxygen tube down the throat) to help her with her breathing & to lower the blood pressure.

Called my brother, Elmer & family, a friend, for prayer & advice on the matter since this will sedate her, & will have to her breathe mechanically. Intubation was iniated at 6:30 am, transferring her to the 3rd floor to the ICU for observation & evaluation.

CAT Scan was initiated to find out other symptoms. It revealed that the right lung has collapsed/pneumothorax with the left lung doing all the work for several hours prior to intubation revealed also that the left lung was starting to collapse along with the right & intubation has saved her from expiring.

Right lung received a tube/below ribs to help re-inflate/air exchange for Agnes' breathing. Left lung was being considered also for this procedure for possibility of collapsing.

Doctors informed us that the right lung collapsed maybe due to pin hole size puncture caused by the cancer cells making the lung wall porous, also there is NO possibility of cure/repair due to both lungs being filled with cancer cells complication. (Note: She's no longer taking chemo and Tarceva.)

We are asking for your mighty prayers & still Expecting Miracles!
Our goal is have Thanksgiving with our Family/Friends. For this will be Her Finest Days/Hours with Us here on Earth....." ~Dennis & family

Having Thanksgiving dinner together as a family. Simple yet significant request. Each minute, each day is priceless. Make each moment count with your loved ones, will you? Not just on the holidays but throughout the year.

In the meantime, Dennis asks that if you would like to visit, please make sure that you are not sick. Children under 12 cannot visit due to hospital regulations. She no longer resides in Room 207. She has been moved to the ICU, Room 342. When you do visit, pray and read her the bible. She'll like that.

Send me your favorite bible verses, and photos of/with Agnes, too. Dennis reads them to her, and they encourage her more than you know. Write something (an event, a gesture, serious or silly things) you remember about her, things she did or said that made an impact on you. I'll post them on a special page on this blog.

How precious are Your thoughts about me, O God.

They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them;

They outnumber the grains of sand!

And when I wake up,

YOU are still with me!

~Psalm 139:17-18

A little late, but an update from Tuesday night

2011-11-17T11:03:00.001-08:00

Beautiful, gentle, and still

She has a silent grace

Auntie Agnes, a warrior with a resilient spirit fighting at a steady pace.

With the Lord as her Shepard she wills her battles day by day.

Her strong family and friends meeting at intersections, and waiting rooms,

Anticipating the news that she will be renewed once again.

Each day, each hour, each minute, each moment that passes,

We sit , we wait , we pray.

‘Expect a Miracle’ is the motto of her fight.

‘Expect a Miracle’ is what we want.

‘Expect a Miracle’ is what we say.

'Expect a Miracle' is what we pray.

Before I recap tonight, I would like to share with everyone the wonderful evening I was fortunate to spend with Auntie on Tuesday (11/15) night. Before I came to visit her, I was texting her… asking her how she’s doing today and if she would be up for some company. I had heard from my brother (Chris) and Joe that her appetite has grown and she was craving outside food. I asked her if she would like me to bring her anything, and she said yes. I had made some, spaghetti and meatballs, the night before and had some leftover. I wasn’t too sure if this dish would be too complex for her as she was just re-introducing solids into her diet. But, she said sure why not.

I arrived to her awake and waiting for her breathing-treatment and dinner, but I told her I had brought her something (spaghetti and meatballs) that would definitely be worth her stored up energy to at least try. We waited around for a while and chatted a bit about what’s going on with everyone. She intermittently rested between our brief conversations and she mentioned to me that she’s doing okay… but just gets lonely from time to time. I told her I’m here, and won’t leave until another person arrives. And there are a lot of people that may not be here, but are thinking and praying for her constantly.

I noticed that she was coughing a lot that night, more than I’ve noticed before. But with each cough she tried to spit out as much as she could however, she just didn’t have enough energy to cough what was stuck in her chest. She told me that she was a bit short of breath today, but she was now impatiently waiting on her breathing-treatment, which makes things a lot better after. I told Liana that I brought some spaghetti and if her mom didn’t like it, she was more than welcome to have some. But, once I said this, Auntie shook her head and gave me this look like, “ hey, I’m going to try it, don’t give it away yet!”

A couple minutes later, Auntie got her breathing treatment, the girls and company left and she was resting and I told her going to step out for a bit. Then, she perked up and told me she was ready to try my spaghetti! I was totally surprised and got a portion of what I brought for her heated up by one of the nurses. Sure enough, as soon as I handed over the food she devoured it, in between coughing. I was so happy and delighted that she ate! The nurses were also, pleasantly surprised and pleased to hear that she ate J After, she was done, naturally it was time to sleep. The nurse shortly came in to give Auntie some Ativan so she could rest for the night. Auntie asked me to turn off all the lights, and to draw the curtain. As I walked to the chair at the foot of her bed she called out to me and was smiling, and slightly giggling. She asked me, “did you just pet my head?’ And I told her no and that it was just the two of us in the room. I told her to just rest, and I wouldn’t leave until Uncle Dennis arrived. She then closed her eyes and had the most content and at ease face as she fell asleep. Uncle arrived probably 20 minutes later and, I stayed and chatted with him and told him the good news that she actually ate dinner tonight. Without a doubt Auntie has a very resilient spirit. Each day I know, I, among many pray for her recovery.

I know that today, Wednesday (11/16) was a different story as some folks have posted below updates on her condition. I pray that God may comfort her, and lift her up. To allow her to be at ease as she fights this, and grace for her family and friends that are constantly at her bedside. I also pray for the doctors and nurses tending to her day and night, may they have the knowledge and capability to best heal and comfort her.

~Sharee Nuez

FB Post by her daughter

2011-11-17T10:49:00.000-08:00

I love what Desiree posted on her Mom's FB wall, I just have to share it here. Words of a young woman growing up.

Some of you might not know this. Agnes carried a child to term after finding out it was a boy (the only boy) and had a rare Brittle Bone Disease. I remember her phone call that day. We were both to tears. It was heartbreaking. The doctors said, as Desiree mentioned, the baby will not survive. "Termination" was the option they offered. (When I was pregnant with my Diego and found out he would be a Down Syndrome baby, they asked if I would like to terminate it, and they asked nonchalantly. Absolutely NOT! This life isn't ours to terminate.) Who are we to terminate innocent lives?

EVAN lived nine beautiful days. Much longer than what the doctors anticipated. He would've been 8 years old this year.

So if anyone knows about immense pain and heartaches, Agnes does.

If anyone knows about God's mercy and undying LOVE, she does.

If anyone knows about HOPE, she does.

If anyone knows about prayers being answered, she does.

If anyone knows about staying strong and solely relying on God's strength, she does.

If anyone knows God's Word is True, she does.

And NO ONE can take that away from her.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." ~Jeremiah 29:11

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord." And My ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.” ~Isaiah 55:8

Dennis, Dez, Liana, Sammi, be strong! Praying for you always.

ANOTHER URGENT MESSAGE

2011-11-17T08:14:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I didn't see this earlier:

AGNES ON LIFE SUPPORT! PRAYER IS NEEDED. (texted at 6:05 am)

Laughter in the ICU including mom

2011-11-17T01:13:00.000-08:00

Psalm 73:26 "My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever"

After waiting for family and friends to visit mom first. Finally, it was my turn! Gabe, Desiree, Jayne, Krystal were also in the room seeing mom. After laying hands and prayed in my mind holding moms hand, I started to talk to her with words of affirmation and with faith that she will walk out of that hospital. Words are very powerful, life and death are on the tongue(Proverbs 18:21) so if you visit mom, speak words that bring "LIFE" people. Desiree later walked up holding mom's other hand, and with peace in my heart, I started to lighten up the mood and make some jokes and tell mom what has been happening.
Like, "Hey mom, I gotta give it to ya, hands down, like literally for having the patience and love for taking care of sammi! Because, me and Liana for less than a month have been taking care of Sammi (well mostly Liana of course) and she was driving us CRAZY! So I gotta hand it to you mom for being able to handle Sammi while being patient."
And, "Hey mom! Ronnie, Liana, and I were talking about how we got our names and what they mean earlier today at lunch. And we started to talk about Samantha, and that her name means "to listen", and Ronnie says "TO LISTEN? YEAH! TO LISTEN TO HER!"
Those were just a few, but, with all of the laughter, I noticed (1) her blood pressure was getting higher (to normal because it was low) (2) Her Heart Rate was at 91 and before it was 100 (3) the wrinkles on her forehead (from the pain, because when we walked in the room the started to wake up and respond and was trying to take off the Air Support tubes) were no longer there and she looked more relaxed, and (4) every time we laughed, I noticed a change in her face as if she was laughing and smiling along with us even though she is sedated and having that big air tube in her mouth, Blessing!!!

Call it crazy or call it faith, but, I still have hope that mom is going to walk out of that hospital alive, from what it looks like through our own eyes it looks like things are bad, but, that is why we have faith, because faith is believing without seeing. I believe God is already working inside and is VICTORIOUS!!! In JESUS NAME!

I know we all expect a miracle, but, everyone including myself, must REPENT of our sins. Now is the time to serve our God, Now is the time to repent and ask for forgiveness and come back to the Lord, not half way in , but, All in. God is calling for the Navy Seal believers, that is to lay down your life for Jesus. Remember, He did it for us! Family and Friends, Repent of your sins and Serve our Lord Jesus Christ, leave the selfish life, leave the sinful life and get right with God because God listens to the righteous! God wants all of you!

One more thing, before I left I told mom "this morning when I opened my bible I read Isaiah 46: 3-4 "...I have cared for you since you were born. Yes, I carried you before you were born. I will be your God throughout your lifetime - until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you."

~John Paul

Dennis' text messages

2011-11-16T19:38:00.000-08:00

6:55 am - Intubation has been initiated. Please pray

10:18 am - Numothorax on the right lung on Agnes. Keep praying

the waiting room.

2011-11-16T12:05:00.000-08:00

Sitting in the waiting room of Mercy ICU with some of my family here with me. I keep a hopeful disposition because I believe and expect a miracle. But that does not mean I should get lax on prayer--no. We are on the offense side in prayer and petition. Our GOD is so great and wonderful, I just hope to have that sort of Jesus-calm in me. You know, the Jesus-calm--the type of calm that happens when someone so full of faith and love for Jesus Christ walks into the room. You could be feeling so chaotic, but then the Spirit of the Lord is upon them and having them there is like having a little piece of God in the flesh with you. For we know and have Jesus Christ in us, but sometimes you just want Jesus with skin. My mom is like that, she's got the Jesus calm.

Enough of my thoughts, here's the news you've been waiting for.

Visited my Mom last night, she was having some trouble breathing and was coughing quite a bit. She took a breathing treatment and ate spaghetti! Later that night my dad told me that she was put on bi-pap (that breathing mask). Earlier this morning she was intubated and transferred to the CS-ICU. She just got a CT scan. They're going to place another tube in her lung.

These are critical times for my mom. We're able to visit her but she is heavily sedated. She can hear us and we're going in 3 at a time. It is important that we continue to pray for my mom and believe that she will get through this storm. We are waiting for our Savior to come and calm the storm. Do not lose hope everyone. Thank you everyone for coming and showing your support so far and I believe that it has given my mom the strength to fight. I praise God for raising up my mom to be a fighter. Together, we will win this battle!

Expect a miracle!

be free.
-Liana S.

Fundraising Effort for AGNES & family

2011-11-16T09:33:00.000-08:00

Pastor Hugo Tejada, a family friend of Dennis & Agnes, and the Hispanic Ministry at Church of the Highlands are holding a worship concert and a fundraising effort to contribute to the needs of Agnes Seisa and family.

what: Worship Concert
when: Saturday, November 26th, 7pm
where: Church of the Highlands, 1900 Monterey Drive, San Bruno, California

Please come and have a blessed time.

{Thank you, Hugo & family & friends, for extending yourselves to the Seisa family}

Urgent Phone Call From Dennis

2011-11-16T08:34:00.000-08:00

Dennis said that Agnes was having a hard time breathing all night, rapid team came in, took her to ICU on the 3rd floor where she is right now. Her blood pressure is very high. Doctors strongly suggested intubation or her heart will stop. Families are coming over today. Please don't stop praying for for her.

He has a job interview today but will ask to have it rescheduled. Please pray that he will be granted another interview date, and that he will stay strong.

"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed,

miracles that cannot be counted." ~Job 5:9

Urgent Update!

2011-11-16T07:48:00.000-08:00

Received this text early this morning...

Agnes needs your prayer!

2011-11-16T07:29:00.001-08:00

Thanks for praying for my sister. You can keep her in your prayers. Her blood pressure was much too high this morning. Doctors had to do intubination. This means that they had to stick a tube down her lungs in order to help her breathe. Intubination means that if they didn't do this, her heart would stop. Please pray for recovery!

Expect A Miracle: Support Agnes' Fight // A dance workshop hosted by Press P.L.A.Y. & Intersection Youth

2011-11-15T00:47:00.001-08:00

EXPECT A MIRACLE: Support Agnes’ Fight // A dance workshop hosted by Press P.L.A.Y. and Intersection Youth
- Location: Step One Dance & Fitness | 1920 T St. Sacramento, CA 95811
- Registration starts at 3pm
- $5 minimum donation
THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR EVERYONE WHO IS HELPING MAKE THIS HAPPEN. Honestly, I am overwhelmed at how much support and love we’ve received from all of our friends and family members. I am amazed at the response, and I am still in complete shock. Struggle builds character, strength, and hope. I’m learning how to become the same dependable sister/daughter/cousin/friend you all have been to me. Forever thankful.
With God, NOTHING is impossible, and I am seeing it all right before my very own eyes. God is the source of our strength and hope. Mom, you are loved.
~ Desiree Seisa

Da Growin' Wall O' Love

2011-11-14T08:59:00.000-08:00

Check it ALL out here HERE and be encouraged yo'self. There's more I'm sure.

2011-11-13T17:08:00.000-08:00

She started physical therapy (PT) on Friday. So this is a photo from our webcam of my Mom sitting up by herself for the first time in two weeks. I felt like some sort of spy/stalker but more like a proud parent when I was trying to get this photo of her.

She was also able to stand for the first time in two weeks too, but I know she's impatient and eager to do more than that. She's currently having PT everyday now.

Other news - Espiritu side family visited from L.A. yesterday. It was good to meet them all, I've always quite forgotten that I have family on my Mom's side so it was great to see them, a very pleasant surprise. I know my Mom appreciated them, too, and hopes to see them again soon.

-Liana S.

P.S. Please pray for a three bedroom downstairs apartment. Thank youu.

Dont' MESS with HER!

2011-11-11T11:59:00.000-08:00

She's getting stronger by the minute...

Romans 5:3-5 says that when faced with challenges, “we can rejoice, too, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident HOPE of salvation. And this HOPE will not lead to disappointment.”

Pardon my bedhead =.) We were having too much fun. Taken just before I left for home Thursday, 11/10/11. She's looking good and getting stronger. Don't stop praying!

She can do this...
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." ~Philippians 4:13

Why do we go through trials in our lives?

2011-11-11T06:24:00.001-08:00

My sister's recovery is amazing. In the Bible, there were many miracles and healings that went on. Today, these miracles and healings march on. We simply have to remove any doubt in our hearts and believe wholeheartedly that God is in complete control. God wants us to go to the next level. Agnes's example is a testimony. She touched and affected a lot of lives. I hope that God is working through you to improve your relationship with Him. He used Agnes as a wake up call in our own lives.

Why do we go through trials? Pastor Tony Evans explains it here:

Much like the stress test my doctor puts me through every summer, God allows trials and tests in our lives in order to reveal where we are along our spiritual journey. He does this for the purpose of correcting whatever happens to be wrong, revealing whatever needs to be revealed, and strengthening whatever seems to be weak so that we might move on to what He has in store for us.

When you are caught between a rock and a hard place, you feel trapped, stuck, and tired of where you are. You either don't know what to do, or you don't know how to legitimately do what you feel you need to do. You are like Israel when they faced Pharaoh on one side and the Red Sea on the other and certain death was upon them.

Getting caught between a rock and a hard place is a lose-lose deal. If it were a clear win-lose deal, then you would know how to choose and where to turn. But what do you do when there are no clear choices? What option do you choose when both options are bad? Have you ever been in a situation where all of the ways that you turn to are problems, and you are just trying to find the least possible problem to choose as the solution?

I know I've been in situations like that and it's not fun. It's about as fun as huffing and puffing on that treadmill in my doctor's office. But one thing I've learned over the years is that God has a purpose for these times in our lives. Just like my doctor is not a mean man for putting my body through all of that stress, God is not a mean God when He decrees that we go through trials.

When God wants to reveal the real condition of your heart to empower you toward His plan for your future, He puts you in one of these kinds of trials.

James 1:12 and Psalms 6

Finally figured out how to post on the blog! (:

2011-11-10T18:24:00.000-08:00

Photo taken yesterday morning, this is her "I'm sad because I'm sick" face.

Hello all! Liana speaking from the bedside of my Mom.
Just found out some wonderful news about all of...30 seconds ago!
I spoke to her Doctor in order to first of all, introduce myself and second to ask if we could receive a doctor's note so we could move from our second floor apartment to a first floor one.

He cocked his head a little to the left and looked at me kind of funny, "She may not need it." I was taken aback, I know surprise was written all over my face. My thoughts? What do you mean she may not need it? He had a slight smile on his face--he didn't allow the question to linger in the air long, "Her x-rays show improvement in her lungs."

Praise the Lord, my dear friends! The tarceva chemotherapy is effective! Your prayers--God is our ultimate healer. I just ask you continue to keep the faith and pray because...

We expect a miracle.

We don't just believe--for believing is having the confidence (and that we do have),
but we expect--we look forward and await in eager expectation.

Be free.
- Liana S.

P.S. If you don't know who I am, I'm Dennis and Agnes' daughter (middle child).

Late Night Update (Very Late)

2011-11-10T01:24:00.000-08:00

"Rise up, O Lord, in all Your power.

With music and singing we celebrate Your mighty acts."

~Psalm 21:13

"Praise the Lord, for the Lord is good; celebrate His lovely name with music." ~Psalm 135:3

"I will praise You with music...because You are faithful to Your promises, O my God. I will sing praises to You..." ~Psalm 71:22

"Praise the Lord, for the Lord is good; celebrate His lovely name with music." ~Psalm 135:3

"The eyes of all look to You in hope; You give them their food as they need it." ~Psalm 145:15

"He trains my hands for battle; He strengthens my arm to draw a bronze bow." ~Psalm 18:34

"Nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.

No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." ~Romans 8:38-39

Agnes is now sleeping soundly. Completely different from my last week's visit. She can sit up, and help herself with her food. Not much but it's a good start. She can breathe easily, barely any coughing. She's still lightheaded, gets dizzy, and cannot walk. She can't wait to use her legs. The nurses put some contraptions on her legs to circulate the blood.

Friends from the youth group came to minister/serenade her with worship tunes. (Thanks Gabe & Mikey--that was awesome praise & worship.) I truly enjoyed the soft live music. Her girls were here, too (sans Dez). Sammi helped me put up paper hearts on the wall with Chris' help. They stayed until a little after 10pm. Dennis came by later from a job interview to pick up his girls. They still have school the next day.

We had some time alone before her medications kicked in. Her eyes were getting very heavy, and even at that, she was fighting sleep. Didn't I tell you she's a fighter? Which is a good thing but not at that time. She needed to rest. It's so good to see her smile, laugh at my corny jokes, and appreciate beautiful music. It was just like the good ol' days.

Right now, we're playing Sharee's playlist. (Thank you, Sharee =.)

Keep praying. She's doing a lot better but still weak and in need of assistance. She's taking it nice and slow. Again, thank you everyone for visiting and reaching out to her. She's immensely blessed, as I.

Here's her prayer requests:
- cancer-free, completely healed
- Medi-cal is approved--just needs little paperwork to get it going
- able to move apartment unit from 2nd floor to ground floor
- to celebrate Thanksgiving at home with her family
- not to worry too much about the future
- wants to do normal things like walk around Target without having to buy anything
- able to go out with her girlfriends and to enjoy some social life when she gets better
- Dennis gets the job he interviewed for

Wishing everyone a blessed weekend.

Hem your blessings with thankfulness so they don't unravel. ~Author Unknown

ciao, siopao =.)
~(ate/auntie) christine

Ensure for DIZZERT...

2011-11-09T00:30:00.000-08:00

I came by to visit Auntie Agnes after I got off work on Monday afternoon, and ended up staying well into the evening. I am happy to report that Auntie is doing very well and improving day by day. Her appetite is slowly getting bigger and she is talking more. On Monday evening, she was informed by her RT (respiratory therapist) that her pulse/ox stats had improved throughout the entire day. The next morning (Tuesday, 11/8) as promised, I brought a new flavor of Ensure so she could have a new flavor to mix up a few things. We took some time this morning to organize her space with a few new caddies. :) One of the first things Auntie was excited to share with me was she was no longer getting her breathing treatments because on the affects post treatment (she gets really anxious, in which she would need another medicine to counter act her anxiety) and in great part her breathing is improving. She is still on oxygen, but much more relaxed and getting the needed rest that her body needs. The Dr. that came in to check on her, informed her that gaining weight and getting adequate rest is vital to her improvement.

Lunch arrived around noon, and she dared me to try her food. I told her I would if she would do it first. She tried everything on her plate and finished her soup, and ensure! ;) Naturally, after a meal it's nap time! I brought my laptop to make a mix of music that will help her relax while she's in the room. In the process of making the mix, Auntie fell asleep and so did I! I guess that the mix is so good, I inadvertently put myself to sleep! If anyone would like to expand her library of relaxing music, please feel free to bring a CD! Uncle Dennis brought a cd/ipod player, so no need to bring a boombox of your own. She likes acoustic music (i.e. guitars, easy jazz, etc.) While Auntie and I were napping, Uncle Dennis and Pastor Hugo went out on some errands. Little did Auntie and I know that they would come back with a mini-fridge, and enough ensure to fill it! It was quite the sight to see as they perched it atop the window ledge and filled it with a bounty of ensure!

Auntie's faith, strength, and courage amazes me. Day by day, little by little, she is getting better...

--Sharee Nuez--

{Thanks, Sharee, for this wonderful account of your time with your Auntie Agnes.}

Today's Update: Better!

2011-11-08T09:29:00.000-08:00

So delighted to read her response just this morning. Keep praying. Thanks, family & friends for updating everyone and encouraging (Auntie) Agnes.

And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise her up. If she has sinned, she will be forgiven. ~James 5:15

2011-11-07T19:50:00.000-08:00

Mom: You still have school. There are many people who will fill in while your away.
10:47 PM
Desiree: yay im glad i got a response. how are you feeling? i MISS YOU!!! im glad to hear from you
10:55 PM
Mom: i heard i almost didnt make it friday but im better now
11:01 PM
Desiree: yes!! im so happy !!!! mom sammie cannot be without you & neither can we. thank God!!!
11:15 PM
Mom: Im goiing to sleep now, very tired

Heard more than 2 sentences from mom! It's the little things that matter the most. :)

Just Received a Text from Dennis

2011-11-07T10:44:00.000-08:00

"Will qualify for 1 year supply of TARCEVA. Praise GOD! :-D"

And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:19